Contraddictions

You know how far I can go for desire
You know how deeply I can plunge to find my empire
You cannot believe that I'm still here indecisive
You can't believe that I'm still here crumbling like a towel

And I hide behind words and leaves and shadows
And I build dry fantasies with doubts in black holes
You cannot find a thing to grasp from while I'm manoeuvring in circles and propel and withdraw in distant horizons