Cold, Dark Winter

I take a breath and try to recollect
Who I am and where I've been
I don't recognize, my own face
I don't even remember my name

What doesn't kill you makes you weaker
When you're hooked up to synthetic machines
Just so you can breathe
Am I sinking? Or just dreaming?

Strapped in a vessel going nowhere
I try to reach you but no words escape
Can you blame me if I felt like giving it up? (Giving it up)
Tell me this cold, dark winter won't last forever

The cynic in me is screaming to pull the plug and leave
To desist must be better than purgatory
The cynic in me is telling you to leave
But I can't justify the end of life with no goodbye

It was just like a dream when I saw you in my bed
Felt your hand latching on but no grip could be given back
I see her in my room crying tears my endless sleep
I trade places and faces so you wouldn't face it alone

Because I am

Strapped in a vessel going nowhere
I try to reach you but no words escape
Can you blame me if I felt like giving it up? (Giving it up)
Tell me this cold, dark winter won't last forever
Tell me this cold, dark winter won't last forever

Leave me alive with the sharks unsure
When I'm burning I must be
I don't blame you if you'd leave
The cynic in me is screaming to pull the plug and run
I feel a hand reaching in my dream pulling me from purgatory