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Or a lot
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I was ten, shit, I believed I could fly
I just flap my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd that I was speaking with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with
But this is just a fucking portion of the war my mind
So take you fuckers back and through the vortex of time
When I was envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the had been cut
He it out and sodomized and forced his cock through my gut

See it was weird because I felt I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it millions of times
And I would swear that I would tell but they think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up with the
And now my hate was so eruptive and shit
But this is 'cause I guess he told his friend what he do
And they ate it up, shit I was like a for two

And then it happened in a home where every one knew
And they do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really to blame it on you
But you, by then wouldn't know what to do

And now it happened so often that he was getting
And I'm scared every time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he
I had no the effect it would have on my head
My was pumping it was thumping with like tons of my fear
being seven and seeing cum in your underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even from my butt
right? Now let that feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of killing these
Wanted to take a fucking and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its leftover
Wanted to rip it out and fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the of these men
But that keep me out the motherfucking reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to I wasn't fucked from the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I to run from myself
There was a point in my life where I like who I was
So I'd the other people I would try to become
Sexuality into play and with as scarred as I was
I was scared of men so I started liking girls
I started starving myself, fucked up my bodily
I didn't wanna be to nobody else
I want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking reason behind every that I show
I never got to be a kid so as far as I grow
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My problem was fear, and what being fearful could do
It made me run, it made me hide it made me of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the anymore
I I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before
I had to deal with my shit, I had to look at my
To understand to grow you've got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just standing breathing proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I made you look like a
I'm fucking great, can't fucking hate, you look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to you there's a way from the ground
The makings of a legend are often hidden in
So just be strong and just move on and just what you can
Because it makes your better when you read at the end

There's a story behind every scar that I show
I made it out, a me nobody's gotten before
I had to my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet
I I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet