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Now, might get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental discretion is

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I I could fly
I would just flap my arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision that I was speaking God
And then I'd his fucking fist off and beat him with mine
But this is a fucking portion of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you fuckers back and through the of time
I was seven envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and and forced his cock through my gut

See it was weird because I felt I was losing my mind
And then it happened it happened millions of times
And I would swear that I would tell but they think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he was like a beacon of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my was so volcanically eruptive and shit
But is nothing 'cause I guess he told his friend what he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And it happened in a home where every fucking one knew
And they ain't do shit but blame it on youth
I'm mom but I really used to blame it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't what to do

And now it happened so often he was getting particular
And I'm more scared every time, to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He on top of me and forced himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and swallow the spit

And I was confused but I was so I did what he said
I had no idea the it would have on my head
My heart was pumping it was thumping with like tons of my
Imagine being and seeing cum in your underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed my butt
Disgusting right? Now let that ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of these niggas
Wanted to take a brick and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking and burn its leftover parts
to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the of these men
But that keep me out the motherfucking reach of my sin
And psychologically I was as fucked as they come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't from the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from myself
There was a point in my life where I like who I was
So I'd create the other I would try to become
Sexuality came into and with as scarred as I was
I was scared of men so I started liking girls
I started starving myself, fucked up my bodily
I wanna be attractive to nobody else
I didn't want the appeal, wanted to my own growth
But there's a fucking reason behind every scar that I
I got to be a kid so that's as far as I grow
My state is out of date, and that's as far as I know

My biggest was fear, and what being fearful could do
It me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the same
I mean I'm sane but I'm but not the same as before
I had to deal with my shit, I had to at my truth
To understand that to grow you've got to look at root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just standing living proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I made you look a clown
I'm fucking great, fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just this to tell you there's a way from the ground
The of a legend are often hidden in trials
So just be strong and move on and just accept what you can
Because it makes your better when you read at the end

There's a story behind every single that I show
I made it out, this a me gotten before
I had to open my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet
I said I my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me as I cleaned out my closet