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Now, this get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I believed I fly
I would just my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my I'd envision that I was speaking with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and him with mine
But this is just a fucking of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you fuckers and through the vortex of time
When I was envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I swear that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the lights had cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and forced his cock my gut

See it was weird because I felt like I was my mind
And then it happened like it millions of times
And I would that I would tell but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the that he held was like a beacon of mine
So now I got to it, I put up with the shit
And now my hate was so eruptive and shit
But this is nothing 'cause I guess he his friend what he do
And they ate it up, I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a where every fucking one knew
And ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really used to it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't know to do

And now it happened so that he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He on top of me and forced himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like them Popsicle
So put your mouth on my dick and swallow the spit

And I was confused but I was so I did what he said
I had no idea the effect it would on my head
My heart was pumping it was with like tons of my fear
Imagine being seven and seeing cum in underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed from my
Disgusting right? Now let that feeling through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its leftover
to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the reach of men
But that didn't keep me out the reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked from the
I was of myself, I had no love for myself
I to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from myself
There was a in my life where I didn't like who I was
So I'd the other people I would try to become
Sexuality came into and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started girls
I started myself, fucked up my bodily health
I didn't be attractive to nobody else
I didn't the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking reason behind every scar I show
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My state is out of date, and that's as far as I know

My biggest problem was fear, and what being could do
It made me run, it made me it made me scared of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the same
I I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before
I had to deal with my shit, I had to look at my
To that to grow you've got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to myself proud
And now I'm just living breathing proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I made you look like a
I'm great, can't fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you a way from the ground
The makings of a are often hidden in trials
So just be strong and just move on and accept what you can
Because it makes your better when you read at the end

There's a story behind single scar that I show
I made it out, this a me gotten before
I had to open my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my
I said I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my