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Now, this might get a personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

I was ten, shit, I believed I could fly
I would just flap my arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision that I was speaking God
And then I'd chop his fist off and beat him with mine
But this is just a fucking of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you back and through the vortex of time
When I was seven me at the bottom of stairs
And I swear that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the lights had cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and forced his cock my gut

See it was weird because I like I was losing my mind
And it happened like it happened millions of times
And I would swear that I would tell but would think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a beacon of
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my hate was so volcanically and shit
But this is nothing 'cause I he told his friend what he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a home where every fucking one
And they do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really to blame it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't know to do

And now it happened so often that he was particular
And I'm more scared every time, word to my speed and
One night he came home and I was in my bed
He climbed on top of me and himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he
I had no idea the effect it have on my head
My heart was pumping it was thumping like tons of my fear
Imagine being seven and seeing cum in your
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed my butt
Disgusting right? Now let that feeling ring your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of killing niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they teeth through liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its parts
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my

Then I up and I wasn't within the reach of these men
But didn't keep me out the motherfucking reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to I wasn't fucked from the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run myself
was a point in my life where I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the other I would try to become
Sexuality came into play and as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I liking girls
I started starving myself, fucked up my health
I didn't be attractive to nobody else
I want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But a fucking reason behind every scar that I show
I got to be a kid so that's as far as I grow
My mental state is out of date, and as far as I know

My biggest problem was fear, and being fearful could do
It made me run, it made me hide it made me of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the same
I mean I'm sane but I'm but not the same as before
I had to deal with my shit, I had to at my truth
To understand that to grow you've got to look at your
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just standing living proof look at me now
I made it everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, can't hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying to tell you there's a way from the ground
The makings of a legend are often hidden in
So be strong and just move on and just accept what you can
Because it your story better when you read at the end

There's a story behind single scar that I show
I made it out, this a me nobody's gotten
I had to open my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me as I cleaned out my closet
I said I my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet