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Or a lot
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When I was ten, shit, I believed I fly
I just flap my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision that I was with God
And I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine
But this is just a portion of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you back and through the vortex of time
I was seven envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no fallacy
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and and forced his cock through my gut

See it was weird because I felt like I was my mind
And then it like it happened millions of times
And I would swear I would tell but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the power he held was like a beacon of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my hate was so volcanically and shit
But this is nothing 'cause I guess he his friend what he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a home every fucking one knew
And they ain't do shit but blame it on youth
I'm mom but I really used to blame it on you
But you, by then wouldn't know what to do

And now it happened so that he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking swallow the

And I was confused but I was scared so I did he said
I had no idea the effect it have on my head
My heart was pumping it was thumping with like tons of my
Imagine being and seeing cum in your underwear
I know nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt
right? Now let that feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of these niggas
to take a fucking brick and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its leftover
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my

Then I grew up and I within the reach of these men
But that didn't keep me out the reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked the jump
I was of myself, I had no love for myself
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I to run from myself
There was a point in my life where I didn't who I was
So I'd the other people I would try to become
Sexuality came into and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I liking girls
I starving myself, fucked up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be attractive to nobody
I didn't the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But there's a reason behind every scar that I show
I got to be a kid so that's as far as I grow
My mental state is out of date, and as far as I know

My biggest problem was fear, and what fearful could do
It made me run, it made me hide it me scared of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the anymore
I I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before
I had to with my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand that to grow you've got to look at your
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just standing breathing proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I made you look a clown
I'm fucking great, can't fucking hate, you nigga at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you a way from the ground
The makings of a are often hidden in trials
So be strong and just move on and just accept what you can
Because it makes your story better you read at the end

There's a behind every single scar that I show
I made it out, this a me gotten before
I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet
I I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet