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When I was ten, shit, I I could fly
I would just my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my I'd envision that I was speaking with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with
But this is just a fucking portion of the war my mind
So I'mma take you back and through the vortex of time
When I was seven me at the bottom of stairs
And I swear that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the first to try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and his cock through my gut

See it was weird I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened millions of
And I would swear that I would tell but would think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was a beacon of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my hate was so volcanically and shit
But this is nothing 'cause I guess he told his friend he do
And they ate it up, shit I was like a for two

And then it happened in a home every fucking one knew
And ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really to blame it on you
But you, by then wouldn't know what to do

And now it happened so often that he was getting
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One he came home and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and forced between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking swallow the

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he
I had no idea the effect it would on my head
My heart was pumping it was with like tons of my fear
Imagine being seven and seeing cum in underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed my butt
Disgusting Now let that feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of these niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and its leftover parts
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking on my heart

I grew up and I wasn't within the reach of these men
But that didn't keep me out the motherfucking of my sin
And psychologically I was just as as they come
I was confused, I had to prove I fucked from the jump
I was of myself, I had no love for myself
I tried to kill, I to hide, I tried to run from myself
There was a in my life where I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the people I would try to become
Sexuality came into play and as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I liking girls
I started myself, fucked up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be to nobody else
I didn't want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own
But there's a fucking reason behind every scar that I
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My biggest problem was fear, and what fearful could do
It made me run, it made me it made me scared of the truth
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before
I had to with my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand to grow you've got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just standing breathing proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to you there's a way from the ground
The makings of a legend are often in trials
So just be strong and just on and just accept what you can
Because it makes your story when you read at the end

There's a story behind every single scar I show
I made it out, this a me nobody's before
I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet
I said I opened my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet