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Now, might get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I I could fly
I would just my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision that I was with God
And I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine
But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my
So I'mma take you back and through the vortex of time
When I was envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and the lights had been cut
He it out and sodomized and forced his cock through my gut

See it was because I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it millions of times
And I would swear that I would tell but they would think that I was
And now the power that he was like a beacon of mine
So now I got to it, I put up with the shit
And now my hate was so volcanically and shit
But this is nothing I guess he told his friend what he do
And they ate it up, shit I was like a for two

And it happened in a home where every fucking one knew
And they ain't do shit but fucking blame it on
I'm sorry mom but I really used to it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't what to do

And now it so often that he was getting particular
And I'm more every time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he came home and I was in my bed
He climbed on top of me and forced himself my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he
I had no the effect it would have on my head
My heart was pumping it was thumping with tons of my fear
Imagine being seven and seeing cum in underwear
I know it's nasty but I'd even bleed from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they through they liver
Wanted to the fucking world and burn its leftover parts
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my

I grew up and I wasn't within the reach of these men
But didn't keep me out the motherfucking reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked the jump
I was of myself, I had no love for myself
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I to run from myself
There was a point in my life where I didn't who I was
So I'd create the other people I would try to
Sexuality came play and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I liking girls
I started starving myself, up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be attractive to nobody
I didn't want the appeal, wanted to my own growth
But there's a reason behind every scar that I show
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My biggest was fear, and what being fearful could do
It me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the truth
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I mean I'm but I'm insane but not the same as before
I had to with my shit, I had to look at my truth
To that to grow you've got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make myself
And now I'm just standing living breathing look at me now
I made it everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, can't hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way the ground
The makings of a legend are often hidden in
So just be strong and move on and just accept what you can
Because it your story better when you read at the end

There's a story every single scar that I show
I it out, this a me nobody's gotten before
I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my
I said I opened my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet