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Now, this get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

I was ten, shit, I believed I could fly
I would just flap my fucking arms and try to with the sky
And in my mind I'd that I was speaking with God
And I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine
But this is just a portion of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you back and through the vortex of time
I was seven envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the lights had cut
He whipped it out and and forced his cock through my gut

See it was because I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened of times
And I would swear that I would tell but they think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a beacon of
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my hate was so volcanically eruptive and
But this is nothing 'cause I he told his friend what he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a home every fucking one knew
And ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really used to it on you
But even you, by then know what to do

And now it so often that he was getting particular
And I'm more scared every time, word to my and ventricular
One night he came and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like them sticks
So put your on my dick and fucking swallow the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he
I had no idea the it would have on my head
My heart was pumping it was thumping like tons of my fear
being seven and seeing cum in your underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed my butt
right? Now let that feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of killing these
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they teeth through they
Wanted to smash the fucking and burn its leftover parts
to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I within the reach of these men
But that didn't keep me out the motherfucking of my sin
And I was just as fucked as they come
I was confused, I had to I wasn't fucked from the jump
I was of myself, I had no love for myself
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I to run from myself
There was a point in my where I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the other I would try to become
Sexuality into play and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started liking
I started starving myself, fucked up my health
I didn't wanna be attractive to else
I didn't want the appeal, wanted to my own growth
But there's a fucking reason behind every scar that I
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My biggest problem was fear, and what being fearful do
It me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the truth
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as
I had to deal with my shit, I had to at my truth
To understand that to grow you've got to look at root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to myself proud
And now I'm just standing living breathing look at me now
I made it through everything, I made you like a clown
I'm fucking great, fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm saying this to tell you there's a way from the ground
The of a legend are often hidden in trials
So be strong and just move on and just accept what you can
it makes your story better when you read at the end

There's a story behind single scar that I show
I made it out, this a me gotten before
I had to open my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my
I said I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for joining me as I cleaned out my closet