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Now, this get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

I was ten, shit, I believed I could fly
I would just flap my fucking and try to meet with the sky
And in my I'd envision that I was speaking with God
And I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine
But this is just a portion of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you fuckers back and through the vortex of
When I was envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and his cock through my gut

See it was weird because I felt I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened of times
And I swear that I would tell but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the that he held was like a beacon of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up with the
And now my was so volcanically eruptive and shit
But this is nothing 'cause I guess he told his friend he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a home where every fucking one
And they do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I used to blame it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't know to do

And now it happened so often that he was getting
And I'm more scared every time, word to my speed and
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He on top of me and forced himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my and fucking swallow the spit

And I was but I was scared so I did what he said
I had no idea the effect it would have on my
My heart was pumping it was thumping like tons of my fear
Imagine being seven and cum in your underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of killing these
to take a fucking brick and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its leftover
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking on my heart

Then I grew up and I within the reach of these men
But that keep me out the motherfucking reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no for myself
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from
There was a point in my life I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the other I would try to become
Sexuality came into play and as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started girls
I starving myself, fucked up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be to nobody else
I didn't want the appeal, to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking reason every scar that I show
I never got to be a kid so as far as I grow
My mental state is out of date, and as far as I know

My biggest problem was fear, and what being fearful do
It made me run, it made me it made me scared of the truth
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the as before
I had to deal my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand that to grow you've got to look at root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to myself proud
And now I'm just standing living breathing look at me now
I made it everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, can't hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way from the
The of a legend are often hidden in trials
So just be strong and just on and just accept what you can
it makes your story better when you read at the end

There's a behind every single scar that I show
I made it out, this a me nobody's gotten
I had to open my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me as I cleaned out my closet
I said I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet