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Now, this get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I believed I fly
I would just flap my fucking arms and try to meet the sky
And in my mind I'd that I was speaking with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with
But this is a fucking portion of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you fuckers back and through the of time
When I was seven me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no fallacy
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the had been cut
He whipped it out and and forced his cock through my gut

See it was because I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened of times
And I swear that I would tell but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a beacon of
So now I got to it, I put up with the shit
And now my hate was so eruptive and shit
But this is nothing 'cause I guess he his friend what he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a home where fucking one knew
And they ain't do shit but fucking it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really to blame it on you
But you, by then wouldn't know what to do

And now it so often that he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he came home and I was in my bed
He climbed on top of me and forced between my legs
He me, hey Ray, I see you like them Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and swallow the spit

And I was but I was scared so I did what he said
I had no idea the effect it have on my head
My heart was pumping it was thumping with like of my fear
being seven and seeing cum in your underwear
I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd bleed from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let that feeling ring through guts

I thought of myself, I thought of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a brick and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to the fucking world and burn its leftover parts
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the of these men
But that didn't keep me out the reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I fucked from the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no for myself
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run myself
There was a point in my life where I like who I was
So I'd the other people I would try to become
Sexuality came into and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I liking girls
I starving myself, fucked up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be attractive to else
I want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking reason behind every scar I show
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My problem was fear, and what being fearful could do
It made me run, it me hide it made me scared of the truth
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before
I had to deal with my shit, I had to at my truth
To understand that to grow got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make myself
And now I'm just standing living breathing proof at me now
I it through everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, can't fucking hate, you look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you a way from the ground
The of a legend are often hidden in trials
So be strong and just move on and just accept what you can
Because it makes your story better you read at the end

There's a story behind every single scar I show
I made it out, this a me nobody's gotten
I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for joining me as I cleaned out my closet
I I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet