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Now, this might get a personal
Or a lot
discretion is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I believed I fly
I would just my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision that I was speaking God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and him with mine
But this is a fucking portion of the war with my mind
So I'mma take you fuckers back and the vortex of time
When I was seven me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the first to try but he did
He took me to the and after the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and forced his through my gut

See it was because I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened of times
And I would swear that I would but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a beacon of
So now I got used to it, I put up with the
And now my was so volcanically eruptive and shit
But this is 'cause I guess he told his friend what he do
And they ate it up, I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a where every fucking one knew
And they ain't do shit but fucking it on youth
I'm mom but I really used to blame it on you
But even you, by wouldn't know what to do

And now it happened so often he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and himself between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like them sticks
So put your on my dick and fucking swallow the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he
I had no idea the effect it would on my head
My heart was it was thumping with like tons of my fear
Imagine being seven and seeing cum in underwear
I know it's nasty but I'd even bleed from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let that feeling ring through guts

I of offing myself, I thought of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a fucking and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and its leftover parts
to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart

Then I up and I wasn't within the reach of these men
But that didn't me out the motherfucking reach of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from myself
There was a in my life where I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the other people I try to become
Sexuality came into play and as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started liking
I started starving myself, fucked up my health
I didn't wanna be attractive to else
I didn't the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking behind every scar that I show
I never got to be a kid so as far as I grow
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My biggest problem was fear, and what being could do
It me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the as before
I had to deal with my shit, I had to look at my
To understand that to grow you've got to at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make myself
And now I'm just living breathing proof look at me now
I it through everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm great, can't fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying to tell you there's a way from the ground
The makings of a legend are often in trials
So be strong and just move on and just accept what you can
Because it makes story better when you read at the end

There's a story behind every single scar that I
I made it out, this a me gotten before
I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet
I said I opened my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me as I cleaned out my closet