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Now, this might get a personal
Or a lot
discretion is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I I could fly
I just flap my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my I'd envision that I was speaking with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and him with mine
But this is just a fucking portion of the war my mind
So take you fuckers back and through the vortex of time
When I was seven envision me at the bottom of
And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no fallacy
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and forced his through my gut

See it was weird because I like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened millions of
And I would swear that I would but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the that he held was like a beacon of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my hate was so eruptive and shit
But this is nothing I guess he told his friend what he do
And they ate it up, shit I was like a for two

And it happened in a home where every fucking one knew
And ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really to blame it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't what to do

And now it happened so often he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and forced between my legs
He told me, hey Ray, I see you like them sticks
So put your mouth on my and fucking swallow the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did he said
I had no idea the it would have on my head
My heart was it was thumping with like tons of my fear
Imagine being and seeing cum in your underwear
I know nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let feeling ring through your guts

I of offing myself, I thought of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its parts
Wanted to rip it out and just step on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the reach of men
But that didn't keep me out the reach of my sin
And psychologically I was as fucked as they come
I was confused, I had to prove I fucked from the jump
I was of myself, I had no love for myself
I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I to run from myself
There was a point in my life I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the other people I try to become
Sexuality came into play and with as as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started liking
I starving myself, fucked up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be attractive to else
I want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking reason behind every that I show
I got to be a kid so that's as far as I grow
My state is out of date, and that's as far as I know

My problem was fear, and what being fearful could do
It made me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the as before
I had to deal my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand that to you've got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just living breathing proof look at me now
I made it everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way the ground
The makings of a are often hidden in trials
So just be strong and just on and just accept what you can
it makes your story better when you read at the end

There's a story behind single scar that I show
I made it out, this a me nobody's gotten
I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet
I I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet