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Now, might get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I believed I fly
I would just flap my fucking arms and try to meet the sky
And in my mind I'd envision I was speaking with God
And then I'd his fucking fist off and beat him with mine
But this is just a fucking portion of the war my mind
So I'mma take you fuckers back and through the of time
When I was seven envision me at the bottom of
And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no fallacy
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the first to try but he did
He me to the basement and after the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and his cock through my gut

See it was weird I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened it happened millions of times
And I would swear that I would tell but would think that I was lyin'
And now the power he held was like a beacon of mine
So now I got used to it, I put up with the
And now my was so volcanically eruptive and shit
But is nothing 'cause I guess he told his friend what he do
And they ate it up, shit I was like a for two

And it happened in a home where every fucking one knew
And they ain't do shit but blame it on youth
I'm mom but I really used to blame it on you
But even you, by then know what to do

And now it so often that he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he came and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my
He me, hey Ray, I see you like them Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking the spit

And I was confused but I was scared so I did he said
I had no idea the it would have on my head
My heart was it was thumping with like tons of my fear
Imagine being and seeing cum in your underwear
I know it's but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let that feeling ring through guts

I thought of myself, I thought of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn its parts
Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the reach of men
But that didn't keep me out the motherfucking of my sin
And psychologically I was as fucked as they come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked from the
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from myself
There was a point in my life where I like who I was
So I'd the other people I would try to become
Sexuality into play and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started girls
I started starving myself, up my bodily health
I didn't wanna be attractive to nobody
I didn't want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own
But there's a fucking reason behind every that I show
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I

My biggest problem was fear, and being fearful could do
It me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the truth
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm but not the same as before
I had to with my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand that to grow got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make myself
And now I'm standing living breathing proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I made you look like a
I'm fucking great, can't fucking hate, you nigga at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way the ground
The makings of a legend are hidden in trials
So just be strong and just move on and just what you can
Because it makes story better when you read at the end

There's a story behind every scar that I show
I made it out, this a me nobody's before
I had to my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet
I said I opened my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my