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Now, this might get a personal
Or a lot
discretion is advised

Yo look

When I was ten, shit, I believed I fly
I would just flap my fucking arms and try to with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision I was speaking with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with
But is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind
So take you fuckers back and through the vortex of time
When I was seven envision me at the bottom of
And I swear that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the to successfully try but he did
He took me to the and after the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and forced his cock my gut

See it was weird because I felt like I was my mind
And then it happened it happened millions of times
And I would swear that I would tell but they would that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a beacon of
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my hate was so volcanically and shit
But this is 'cause I guess he told his friend what he do
And ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two

And then it happened in a home where every fucking one
And they ain't do but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I really used to it on you
But you, by then wouldn't know what to do

And now it so often that he was getting particular
And I'm more scared time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He climbed on top of me and himself between my legs
He me, hey Ray, I see you like them Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and fucking swallow the

And I was but I was scared so I did what he said
I had no idea the effect it have on my head
My heart was it was thumping with like tons of my fear
being seven and seeing cum in your underwear
I it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt
Disgusting Now let that feeling ring through your guts

I thought of myself, I thought of killing these niggas
Wanted to take a brick and push they teeth through they liver
Wanted to smash the fucking world and its leftover parts
Wanted to rip it out and fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I within the reach of these men
But that didn't keep me out the motherfucking of my sin
And psychologically I was as fucked as they come
I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked from the
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from myself
was a point in my life where I didn't like who I was
So I'd create the people I would try to become
Sexuality came into and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely of men so I started liking girls
I started starving myself, fucked up my bodily
I didn't wanna be attractive to else
I didn't want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own
But there's a fucking reason behind every scar I show
I never got to be a kid so as far as I grow
My mental is out of date, and that's as far as I know

My biggest problem was fear, and what being could do
It made me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the
I'm not anymore, I'm not the same anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm but not the same as before
I had to with my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand that to grow you've got to look at root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to myself proud
And now I'm just standing breathing proof look at me now
I made it through everything, I you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just this to tell you there's a way from the ground
The makings of a legend are often hidden in
So just be strong and just move on and just what you can
Because it makes your better when you read at the end

There's a story behind every single that I show
I made it out, a me nobody's gotten before
I had to my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet
I I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet