Bored

Hanging over a few lines,
But still Im bored
Swallow pills and chase them down
And drink till Im sore
Read a book to stay awake
But all the pages leave me [await?]
For something great

My real friends say Im waiting for what started long ago
And life is what you make of it
So come on [now/love?], lets go
But still Im bored lately
Do you feel safe?
? drives me crazy
Then this worlds insane
And this worlds insane

I go to a party with an army of mindless fucks
No ones doing anything
No ones interesting
So what
Go back home and write a poem
But all the words seem dumb
And I feel numb

Come on, be [straight?]
Do you really expect me to believe what I cant see?
Come on, [straight?]
Do you really think this was meant to be?
Come on, [straight?]