You should a song where the concept is... You're writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice To your mother, when she was age
I don't Maybe I write you a happy ending I would rearrange the pieces to your sad I would put you far away from the decaying that bore you And let you experience all the ways that happiness could before you Or I'm naïve... I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed It would grow inside you
Spent so much of my time wishing you different But reality is that with can't never be provision But if I could for one thing, I'd go back and I'd fix it I'd tackle all your and kill 'em with precision And better the intentions of every single Who'd play a part in you learning exactly your worth is I'd shower you purpose, I'd wipe hate off the surface I'd reshape all pain and make it fucking worth it No feeling worthless, no more fucking searching No more of that fraud shit, nobody else hurt you Yeah, said else could hurt you And if they ever tried too I'd wipe 'em from the too Cuz I that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too I know that you been running from everything that's you I know you've been burying deep inside you I can see it killing you, wish that I could you But I'm sitting in this time frame Struggling my demons and playing these stupid mind game One day it could get better, maybe it could get Maybe we change shit, no more inclement weather Know you hated mom, know it went through your mind You were just like me, wish that you had more To see from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel Wouldn't lose your wings and from heaven like a cliffhanger
Everything is different now, nothing is the And I swear it feels like you don't know my name But I look at the and I see you every day I'm you in way, every hue and every shade And maybe you know, it's the last thing that I wanted Cuz I hate about you makes me feel like I'm haunted And I don't wanna spend the rest of my on the run and- So I'm just gonna confront it, yeah I'm gonna confront it And tell you that I you for everything you made me And that you need to hear this even if it you angry God lives inside you, already found him The Devil lives in and you just let him hound you And I despise your church for every fucking thing taught you It's just a fucking that I wish I could wipe off you That I wish I wipe off you And I forgive you for doing everything it cost you Everything that it price I wish it didn't cost you Losing a of me that would follow you to Hell Follow you to hatred, or you to jail Followed you to patterns that I could get out of Now I realize that I could never make it that love Now I realize that is the alternative outcome Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count I just that you grew up with someone you could count on I wish you knew you could never make it without love For your goddamn self, and that you never find it in anybody else Cuz I would help you you And if I saw it killing you I swear I would you And if meant the end of me I'd do it all for you so you have your happy end in peace
Because, you are a special thing You're not just my mom, but you're the reason I And the best life that you could've had for yourself making a mistake Would have meant I woulda had a childhood And even my childhood wasn't perfect and I still love you I just want you to know that if I could go and do one thing for you Or be one for you I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so you could've had a nicer life And a childhood, that you know You would not have the mistakes that put us all in this bad situation And not have the to leave But just so you would have been happier and stronger Even if I didn't exist, even it that I was never born That's I would have wanted for you
Yeah, and if that the end of me I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know you tired too I know you've been running from everything behind you I know that you've been everything deep inside you I can see it killing you, wish I could revive you And if meant the end of me I'd do it all for you so you could have your ending And if that the end of me I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy And if meant the end of me I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy
I don't I would write you a happy ending I would rearrange the pieces to your sad I would put you far away from the decaying that bore you And let you experience all the ways that happiness could before you Or I'm naïve... Maybe I'm just a kid who thought if she could plant a seed It would somehow grow you And that I could hide you the rain So it could be easier for happiness to find you Or maybe I'm still a kid caught in a dream I'm the heir to the throne of a princess who's still trying to be Or maybe we're all just caught in the winds of a The leaves of dying, black dahlias