Beside You Now

I know where I'm supposed to be beside you now but they won't let me. They're taking you away. So here I'll lay. eventually I'll waste away and they'll come get me. To place me next to you, right next to you.
Beautiful, letting go of all you've held onto, why can't I, why can't I. Beautiful, letting go of all you know is true, why can't I let you go?
And on and on and what the hell I see no good to be angry with myself. I'll toss and turn tonight. when did I get so uncivilized? I could not awake from sleeping. I could do just fine for most of the time 'til I see my own reflection. so tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies. i cannot continue sleeping. I can fool myself for most of the time 'til I see my own reflection 'cause that reminds me of you.
Beautiful, letting go of all you've held onto, why can't I, why can't I. Beautiful, letting go of all you know is true, why can't I let you go?
And what else could have happened? oh my dear, all my life without you. and what else could have happened? so come away, come away with me love. and I'll find the place you keep your favorite things. I'll try to make you fall in love by association. And now I know in my heart I've never lost a thing 'til I lost you, my love, my love.
Beautiful, letting go of all you've held onto. why can't I, why can't I. Beautiful, letting go of all you know is true, why can't I let you go?
I've no negrets of yesterday, though these tears are falling. I will look to you, I will still remember (God help me now). This will ligher on, your memore deeper than the oceans.