1] High roller bipolar but still missing something like I'm diet cola Trying to boss up like Tony I'm still a like I'm Joseph Bonanno Feel stranded on an island I'm Gilligan a couple teeth, went back to the grill again Fans acting like it's killing them, cheap tricks Wasn't working so I went and got my fixed Known for saying harsh that are partially dark Samples chopped like martial arts Can't complain, like my art But feel like, I'm still for my life to start Last months catatonic, feeling miserable Walk my city and I feel like I'm invisible felt like I had to ask it for dough Not Casper the Ghost grasping for quotes
2] Panic in my legs, heavy while I hallucinate Standing on a ledge about to jump but rejuvenate Holding on, but I it's soon 'Cause the only way I know to patch these open wounds Responsibility, killing me Life used to sparkle. Nothing's thrilling me Used to sit and gather my words, called it Now life is torture, madly end it willingly Reason I'm here are for my dogs and my family I don't anyone to understand me When I was young, love, suicidal Now I'm older, I got tendencies Might be punished for my sins, that make sense Starts a line once, haven't had a since Maybe I lower the bar, it's raised too high Maybe I should harder, but I do try to walk around, thank god i'm the shit Now feel like a piece of in a bottomless pit to build my strength like beam so I can climb out But life so fast, I need a time out