Bad Husband

We never saw from each other's sides
Or eye to eye
Just eye for eye, lie for lie, fight or flight
So much baggage, need a luggage rack
But we carry on with our public spats and our feuds
Oh, back in the news
Love taps when I diss you
Like it was fun
Actually used to run
Back to the booth
Jump back in the studio
Give you a tongue
Lashing than you
Laughed at a stomach tat with the tomb
Stoning was fun, back in our youth
But then it wasn't after we knew
That we were done and actually through (and actually through)
But if there's one fraction of truth
If it could be spun back I would do so many things different

'cause it was such a dumbass excuse
You hit me once
And that I would use to continue the pattern of abuse

Why did I punch back?

Girls your dad is a scumbag

I'm confused because

How come you can be a lord of illusion
How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?
A good dad, but a bad husband
Why are you a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband

You wouldn't beat our love with a writer's block
Just a line that's hot, that I forgot
We laughed a little, cried a lot
I'll never forget when you came home and you held Hailie
Day before you went to jail and daily
How we would wait for that mail lady
Or by the phone, for mom to call
And I watch you pull yourself up
And we decided on giving it one more try despite it all
You're my lightning rod
When my sky gets dark
I'm your shiny rocks

In that tiny box

When we tied the knot

When we broke the knot
Every line we crossed
We were supposed to not
Every time we fought
Being souls that got
Thrown too far
Words that we said that we didn't mean

The words that we meant that we didn't say

The ones that we thought that should've said
Letters written that we could've read

Which maybe would've lead to some good instead
And had this put to bed
But I'd be lying still if I said I wasn't sitting here asking myself

How come you can be a lord of illusion
How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?
A good dad, but a bad husband
Why are you a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband
(dad) (you said)
Forever be a hero in my eyes
In my eyes
But there's always another side to a good father
A great dad, but a bad husband

We brought out the worst in each other
Someone had to make the sparring end
Cause I loved you but I hated that me
And I don't wanna see that side again
But I'm sorry Kim
More than you could ever comprehend
Leaving you was fucking harder than
Sawing off a fucking body limb
Once upon a time where all we had
Maybe that was what drew us to each other
It was true love shit that we never knew was possible
We might have loved each other too much
And maybe that's what made us do what we did to each other
All the screw-ups
Cause you always thought that you was more in love with me
And I was thinking I was more in love than you was
For all the times that we thought it worked
Till we saw how wrong we were
When the dust settles now
And all the dirt

And if I touch the rawest nerve
All I want is for us not to hurt

And it's been an exhaustive search to find the words
But I just heard Mockingbird
And got the urge to jot me some verses and thoughts
The purpose was not to stir up open wounds

I've got a few
And so have you
Or argue who's fault it was
Partly yours, partly mine
But really no ones
This is so tough
I'm getting choked up
Oh fuck it, we both suck
We broke up, got back together
We both thought we had forever
Not bad people, just bad together
We were so nuts
Backstab each other
Another blow struck
But there's no ducking this blow
Cause it's over
And it's closure
But, I'm not so sure how to close this
I just don't know how some people could be
so good at one thing and so fucked at another
It's no wonder

How come you can be a lord of illusion
How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?
A good dad, but a bad husband
Why are you a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband
(dad) (you said)
Forever be a hero in my eyes
I reply
But there's always another side to a good father
A great dad, but a bad husband