I know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so come peep the show Got my xaney of my mate, I ain't gonna say his name It was fun at the start, I to treat it like a game around the time when The Nebulizer dropped I was on all types of shit, but there's one I stop And it with my brain, but I focused on the music I so much, didn't realise I abused it Never had a plan to stop, not in prediction Going through fame, couldn't see I had 1 turned to 2, turned to 3, turned to 4 then I about 6 a day, a little bit more Mixing it lean, gotta stop people seeing What damages can be by looking at me, What to do cause I like a fool and I hate any rapper making xaney's look cool Shit was getting bad I was up with hateful Thoughts in my mind, I would argue with Agreed I would stop, shit I'd it a go By the first fucking night, felt like slitting my Second night, my shaking The ambulance appear and I'm in my mind, what the fuck they doing here? Suddenly I'm caught up and no time to muck round Lucky I got here, cause my body to shut down
Back to square one, nah man you can't You wean yourself off, that's some hard shit What the fuck man, my is a mess I can't that much, feel the pain in my legs I wish it was easy, I could give up and go And still got the hide to tell me pick up my phone Maybe that's my fault, I didn't speak on it I didn't see if as a problem, I would keep it from Rates could always tell, when I couldn't pronounce certain words, dead should I be proud? Anxiety was killin' me, the doctors couldn't deal me Put me on a program cut me on the pills and weed All scared, cause I on my own I 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm dissing them bro Waking up tired, I gotta take more And I didn't even wanna take 'em, is this for real? Losing touch of myself, it's like false It's like I'm walking around without a pulse It's a feeling of death, or like is left Cause there I'm holding my chest, just put a hole in my You see the older I get, It's getting scary as I'm like an eighteen in the head, I weren't of those drugs The shit that they cause, I talk to on walls I don't need this shit ever, but to I will fall
I opened up on 'No Rest' cunts everything That I ice, didn't leave out anything I quit that shit, yeah I left it flat That was 5 ago, they still think I'm a crackhead If that's we going off, fuck me dead In 5 I'll be clean, they'll be calling me a xaney head Funny how the world works for a Once the hit, I became a train wreck I wasn't anyway, so why does it count? Why so many people love me? I can't it out But I'm telling you now, don't you my path you couldn't if you tried, cause I'm going in hard Fuck a poppin a pill, just to go out I end up like this? I don't know, it's a way Well I'm blaming the fame, I said it before But it's enough to me high, feel like ending it all, but I
Brush it off got my fans on my too, and my girl and my brothers And the crew Spilling the truth, like all I can do That's why I don't have time for rappers that are they're true When they lie to fans, apologize in the end I never lied to and this is why I'm the man I you what I'm going through, I don't care what they think That's why I'm triple pills, leaning over the sink I'm almost fuckin as I'm writing this shit Cause of all my ones, and the lives I affect I came from the bottom, I made it my the option, now fame has adoptin' My brain gotta stop it, I am not this Strange we got Scot sick, watch a clock tick Just fuck off, I it just fuck off If I won't have my I'll find a bridge to jump off Fuckin idiots, thinking that the shit is they dyin' in the vomit of there own drool What I meant to say? do what I done I've cut on the program, yeah I've won Repped it from the street, turned into a star a fuckin habit on the xanex but the bars went Crazy and I'm dealing with fame I just want my fans to that I'll still be the same. I'm good