I don't know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so come peep the Got my xaney of my mate, I ain't gonna say his name It was fun at the start, I used to treat it a game This around the time when The dropped I was on all types of shit, but one I couldn't stop And it played my brain, but I focused on the music I so much, didn't realise I abused it Never had a to stop, not in that prediction through fame, couldn't see I had addictions 1 turned to 2, turned to 3, turned to 4 then I need about 6 a day, a bit more Mixing it with lean, gotta people seeing What can be by looking at me, shit What to do cause I feel like a fool and I hate any making xaney's look cool was getting bad I was filled up with hateful Thoughts in my mind, I argue with April Agreed I stop, shit I'd give it a go By the first fucking night, felt like slitting my Second night, my shaking The appear and I'm thinking in my mind, what the fuck they doing here? Suddenly I'm up and there's no time to muck round Lucky I got here, cause my body 'bout to down
to square one, nah man you can't quit You wean yourself off, that's some hard shit the fuck man, my brain is a mess I can't remember that much, feel the pain in my I it was that easy, I could give up and go And people still got the hide to tell me up my phone Maybe that's my fault, I didn't on it much I didn't see if as a problem, I would keep it from Rates could always tell, when I pronounce certain words, brain dead Yeah I be proud? was killin' me, the doctors couldn't deal with me Put me on a program cut me on the pills and weed All scared, cause I on my own I 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm dissing them bro Waking up tired, I gotta take more And I didn't even wanna take 'em, is fuckin for real? Losing touch of myself, it's like reality's like I'm walking around without having a pulse It's a feeling of death, or like nothing is Cause there I'm holding my chest, put a hole in my head You see the older I get, getting scary as fuck I'm like an eighteen in the head, I weren't of those drugs The shit that they cause, I to mirrors on walls I need this shit ever, but to pills I will fall
I opened up on 'No Rest' told cunts That I ice, didn't leave out anything I quit shit, yeah I left it flat dead That was 5 years ago, still think I'm a crackhead If that's what we going off, me dead In 5 years be clean, they'll be calling me a xaney head how the world works for a paycheck Once the fame hit, I became a wreck I wasn't shit anyway, so why it count? Why so many love me? I can't figure it out But I'm telling you now, don't you my path Look you couldn't if you tried, cause I'm going in Fuck a poppin a pill, to go out today How'd I end up like I don't know, it's a way Well I'm blaming the fame, yeah I said it But it's to make me high, feel like ending it all, but I
Brush it off got my fans on my too, and my girl and my brothers And the whole the truth, it's like all I can do That's why I don't have time for that are saying they're true they lie to their fans, apologize in the end I lied to mine and this is why I'm the man I you what I'm going through, I don't care what they think That's why I'm popping pills, leaning over the sink I'm almost fuckin as I'm writing this shit Cause of all my ones, and the lives I affect I came from the bottom, I made it my Created the option, now fame has My gotta stop it, insane I am not this Strange we got Scot sick, imma watch a tick fuck off, I said it just fuck off If I won't have my I'll find a bridge to jump off Fuckin idiots, thinking that the is cool 'Till dyin' in the vomit of there own drool What I meant to say? do what I done I've cut down on the program, I've won it from the street, turned into a star then Caught a fuckin habit on the xanex but the went Crazy and I'm just dealing with I just want my fans to know that I'll still be the same. I'm