I don't know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so peep the show Got my xaney of my mate, I ain't gonna say his name It was fun at the start, I used to it like a game This around the time when The dropped I was on all types of shit, but one I couldn't stop And it with my brain, but I focused on the music I focused so much, didn't realise I it Never had a to stop, not in that prediction Going fame, couldn't see I had addictions 1 turned to 2, to 3, turned to 4 then I need about 6 a day, a little bit more Mixing it with lean, gotta stop seeing What damages can be by looking at me, What to do cause I like a fool and I hate any rapper making xaney's look cool was getting bad I was filled up with hateful Thoughts in my mind, I argue with April Agreed I stop, shit I'd give it a go By the first fucking night, felt like my throat Second night, my shaking The ambulance appear and I'm thinking in my mind, what the fuck doing here? I'm caught up and there's no time to muck round Lucky I got here, cause my body to shut down
Back to square one, nah man you can't You gotta wean yourself off, that's hard shit the fuck man, my brain is a mess I can't remember that much, the pain in my legs I wish it was easy, I could give up and go And people still got the hide to tell me pick up my Maybe that's my fault, I speak on it much I didn't see if as a problem, I would keep it from Rates could always tell, when I pronounce certain words, brain dead Yeah I be proud? Anxiety was me, the doctors couldn't deal with me Put me on a program cut me down on the and weed All scared, cause I on my own I told 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm them bro Waking up tired, I take more pills And I didn't even wanna take 'em, is fuckin for real? Losing touch of myself, it's like reality's It's I'm walking around without having a pulse It's a of death, or like nothing is left Cause there I'm my chest, just put a hole in my head You see the I get, It's getting scary as fuck I'm like an in the head, I weren't aware of those drugs The shit that they cause, I to mirrors on walls I don't need this ever, but to pills I will fall
I up on 'No Rest' told cunts everything That I done ice, didn't leave out I quit that shit, yeah I left it flat That was 5 years ago, they still I'm a crackhead If that's we going off, fuck me dead In 5 years I'll be clean, they'll be calling me a head Funny how the world for a paycheck Once the fame hit, I became a wreck I wasn't shit anyway, so why does it Why so many love me? I can't figure it out But I'm telling you now, don't you follow my Look you couldn't if you tried, cause I'm in hard a poppin a pill, just to go out today How'd I end up like I don't know, it's a way Well I'm the fame, yeah I said it before But it's enough to me high, feel like ending it all, but I
Brush it off got my on my side too, and my girl and my brothers And the crew Spilling the truth, it's all I can do That's why I don't have time for rappers that are saying they're When they lie to fans, apologize in the end I never to mine and this is why I'm the man I tell you what I'm going through, I care what they think That's why I'm triple popping pills, leaning the sink I'm almost fuckin crying as I'm writing shit of all my close ones, and the lives I affect I came the bottom, I made it my problem Created the option, now has adoptin' My brain gotta stop it, insane I am not Strange we got Scot sick, imma watch a clock Just fuck off, I it just fuck off If I won't have my tablets I'll a bridge to jump off idiots, thinking that the shit is cool 'Till they in the vomit of there own drool What I meant to Don't do what I done cut down on the program, yeah I've won Repped it from the street, turned into a then Caught a habit on the xanex but the bars went Crazy and I'm dealing with fame I just want my fans to know that I'll be the same. I'm good