I don't know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so peep the show Got my first xaney of my mate, I ain't gonna say his It was fun at the start, I used to treat it a game This around the when The Nebulizer dropped I was on all types of shit, but there's one I couldn't And it played with my brain, but I focused on the I focused so much, didn't realise I it Never had a to stop, not in that prediction Going fame, couldn't see I had addictions 1 turned to 2, turned to 3, turned to 4 then I need 6 a day, a little bit more Mixing it with lean, gotta stop seeing What damages can be by at me, shit What to do cause I feel like a and I hate any rapper making xaney's look cool Shit was getting bad I was up with hateful Thoughts in my mind, I would argue with Agreed I would stop, shit I'd it a go By the fucking night, felt like slitting my throat Second night, my body The appear and I'm thinking in my mind, what the fuck they doing here? Suddenly I'm caught up and there's no time to round Lucky I got here, my body 'bout to shut down
Back to one, nah man you can't quit You gotta wean yourself off, that's some shit the fuck man, my brain is a mess I can't remember that much, feel the in my legs I wish it was that easy, I give up and go And people still got the to tell me pick up my phone that's my fault, I didn't speak on it much I didn't see if as a problem, I would it from cunts Rates could always tell, when I couldn't certain words, brain dead Yeah should I be Anxiety was killin' me, the doctors couldn't with me Put me on a program cut me down on the pills and All scared, cause I on my own I 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm dissing them bro up tired, I gotta take more pills And I didn't wanna take 'em, is this fuckin for real? Losing touch of myself, it's like reality's It's like I'm walking around having a pulse It's a of death, or like nothing is left Cause there I'm holding my chest, put a hole in my head You see the older I get, It's getting scary as I'm like an eighteen in the head, I weren't aware of drugs The shit that they cause, I to mirrors on walls I need this shit ever, but to pills I will fall
I opened up on 'No Rest' told cunts That I done ice, leave out anything I that shit, yeah I left it flat dead That was 5 years ago, still think I'm a crackhead If that's what we going off, fuck me In 5 years I'll be clean, they'll be me a xaney head how the world works for a paycheck Once the fame hit, I became a train I wasn't shit anyway, so why it count? Why so many people love me? I can't it out But I'm telling you now, you follow my path Look you couldn't if you tried, cause I'm going in a poppin a pill, just to go out today How'd I end up like this? I don't know, a way Well I'm the fame, yeah I said it before But enough to make me high, feel like ending it all, but I
it off got my fans on my side too, and my girl and my brothers And the crew Spilling the truth, like all I can do That's why I don't have time for rappers that are they're true When they lie to their fans, in the end I never lied to mine and is why I'm the man I tell you what I'm going through, I don't care what they That's why I'm triple popping pills, leaning over the I'm fuckin crying as I'm writing this shit of all my close ones, and the lives I affect I from the bottom, I made it my problem the option, now fame has adoptin' My brain stop it, insane I am not this Strange we got Scot sick, imma watch a clock Just fuck off, I said it fuck off If I won't have my tablets I'll find a to jump off idiots, thinking that the shit is cool 'Till they dyin' in the of there own drool What I meant to say? Don't do what I I've cut down on the program, I've won Repped it from the street, turned into a then Caught a fuckin habit on the but the bars went Crazy and I'm just with fame I just my fans to know that I'll still be the same. I'm good