I don't know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so peep the show Got my first of my mate, I ain't gonna say his name It was fun at the start, I used to treat it a game This around the time The Nebulizer dropped I was on all of shit, but there's one I couldn't stop And it played my brain, but I focused on the music I focused so much, didn't I abused it Never had a plan to stop, not in that Going through fame, see I had addictions 1 turned to 2, turned to 3, turned to 4 I need about 6 a day, a little bit more Mixing it lean, gotta stop people seeing What damages can be by looking at me, What to do cause I feel like a fool and I hate any rapper making xaney's cool was getting bad I was filled up with hateful Thoughts in my mind, I would argue April I would stop, shit I'd give it a go By the fucking night, felt like slitting my throat Second night, my body The ambulance appear and I'm thinking in my mind, what the they doing here? I'm caught up and there's no time to muck round Lucky I got here, my body 'bout to shut down
Back to square one, nah man you quit You gotta wean yourself off, that's some hard What the fuck man, my is a mess I can't that much, feel the pain in my legs I wish it was that easy, I give up and go And people got the hide to tell me pick up my phone Maybe that's my fault, I didn't speak on it I see if as a problem, I would keep it from cunts Rates could always tell, when I pronounce certain words, brain dead should I be proud? Anxiety was me, the doctors couldn't deal with me Put me on a program cut me down on the and weed All scared, I feel on my own I told 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm them bro up tired, I gotta take more pills And I didn't even wanna take 'em, is this fuckin for Losing touch of myself, like reality's false It's like I'm around without having a pulse It's a feeling of death, or nothing is left Cause there I'm holding my chest, put a hole in my head You see the older I get, It's scary as fuck I'm like an eighteen in the head, I weren't of those drugs The shit that they cause, I talk to on walls I don't need shit ever, but to pills I will fall
I opened up on 'No Rest' cunts everything That I done ice, didn't out anything I that shit, yeah I left it flat dead That was 5 ago, they still think I'm a crackhead If that's we going off, fuck me dead In 5 I'll be clean, they'll be calling me a xaney head Funny how the world for a paycheck Once the fame hit, I became a train I wasn't shit anyway, so why does it Why so many people love me? I can't it out But I'm telling you now, don't you my path you couldn't if you tried, cause I'm going in hard Fuck a a pill, just to go out today How'd I end up this? I don't know, it's a way Well I'm blaming the fame, I said it before But it's enough to make me high, feel like it all, but I
Brush it off got my fans on my too, and my girl and my brothers And the crew the truth, it's like all I can do That's why I don't time for rappers that are saying they're true When they lie to fans, apologize in the end I never to mine and this is why I'm the man I tell you what I'm going through, I don't care they think That's why I'm triple popping pills, leaning the sink I'm almost fuckin crying as I'm writing shit Cause of all my close ones, and the I affect I came from the bottom, I made it my Created the option, now has adoptin' My gotta stop it, insane I am not this we got Scot sick, imma watch a clock tick Just fuck off, I said it just off If I won't have my tablets find a bridge to jump off Fuckin idiots, thinking that the is cool 'Till they dyin' in the vomit of there own What I meant to say? do what I done I've cut on the program, yeah I've won it from the street, turned into a star then Caught a fuckin habit on the but the bars went and I'm just dealing with fame I just my fans to know that I'll still be the same. I'm good