I don't know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so peep the show Got my first xaney of my mate, I ain't gonna say his It was fun at the start, I used to treat it like a This around the time when The dropped I was on all types of shit, but there's one I couldn't And it played with my brain, but I on the music I so much, didn't realise I abused it had a plan to stop, not in that prediction Going through fame, see I had addictions 1 turned to 2, turned to 3, turned to 4 then I need about 6 a day, a bit more Mixing it lean, gotta stop people seeing What can be by looking at me, shit What to do cause I feel a fool and I hate any rapper making xaney's look cool Shit was getting bad I was up with hateful Thoughts in my mind, I would with April Agreed I stop, shit I'd give it a go By the fucking night, felt like slitting my throat Second night, my shaking The ambulance appear and I'm thinking in my mind, what the fuck they here? Suddenly I'm caught up and there's no time to muck Lucky I got here, cause my 'bout to shut down
Back to square one, nah man you can't You gotta wean yourself off, that's hard shit What the fuck man, my is a mess I can't remember that much, the pain in my legs I it was that easy, I could give up and go And people still got the hide to tell me up my phone Maybe my fault, I didn't speak on it much I didn't see if as a problem, I would keep it cunts Rates could always tell, I couldn't pronounce certain words, brain dead Yeah should I be was killin' me, the doctors couldn't deal with me Put me on a program cut me down on the and weed All scared, I feel on my own I 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm dissing them bro Waking up tired, I gotta more pills And I didn't wanna take 'em, is this fuckin for real? touch of myself, it's like reality's false It's like I'm walking around without a pulse It's a feeling of death, or like nothing is Cause there I'm holding my chest, just put a in my head You see the I get, It's getting scary as fuck I'm an eighteen in the head, I weren't aware of those drugs The shit that they cause, I talk to mirrors on I don't need this shit ever, but to I will fall
I opened up on 'No Rest' told cunts That I done ice, didn't leave out I quit that shit, I left it flat dead was 5 years ago, they still think I'm a crackhead If what we going off, fuck me dead In 5 years I'll be clean, they'll be me a xaney head Funny how the world works for a Once the fame hit, I became a wreck I wasn't shit anyway, so why does it Why so many people love me? I can't it out But I'm telling you now, don't you follow my you couldn't if you tried, cause I'm going in hard Fuck a a pill, just to go out today How'd I end up this? I don't know, it's a way Well I'm the fame, yeah I said it before But it's enough to make me high, feel ending it all, but I
Brush it off got my on my side too, and my girl and my brothers And the crew Spilling the truth, it's all I can do That's why I have time for rappers that are saying they're true When they lie to their fans, in the end I never lied to mine and is why I'm the man I tell you what I'm through, I don't care what they think why I'm triple popping pills, leaning over the sink I'm almost fuckin crying as I'm this shit Cause of all my close ones, and the lives I I came the bottom, I made it my problem the option, now fame has adoptin' My brain gotta stop it, insane I am not we got Scot sick, imma watch a clock tick Just fuck off, I it just fuck off If I won't have my tablets find a bridge to jump off Fuckin idiots, thinking that the shit is 'Till they in the vomit of there own drool I meant to say? Don't do what I done I've cut down on the program, I've won Repped it from the street, into a star then Caught a fuckin on the xanex but the bars went Crazy and I'm just dealing with I want my fans to know that I'll still be the same. I'm good