Awakenings

When we first met the well was dry
A long, dark winter passed us by
With shooting stars and hopeful hearts
Our worlds collide

And so we rushed to fill each other in
Quick to feed our hungry hopes
A feast of our affections we were born anew
With open eyes we tried to make it work

And for a while the magic took
But cracks began to show
As soon as things got hard

Like paper walls our feelings tore
We threw our backs against the door
Unwilling to bear witness to the other side

Oh, the games we play to hide
The tangled dread inside
The fear that we are going nowhere fast

We point the finger out, the anger gets so loud
It drowns out all the sorrow
At least until tomorrow, what then?

I took a good hard look at how I loved
Years I squandered falling fast
For any boy who'd have me was so insecure

I'd lie awake alone at night
Full of loathing, compromised
And wondering how the hell did I end up like this

Oh, the tears of rage I cried
When nowhere could I find
An answer that made any kind of sense to me

I point the finger out, the anger gets so loud
It drowns out all the sorrow
At least until tomorrow

Oh, I wanna learn, I wanna know
Will our history crush us or can we let it go?
I'm not the girl I was but what have I become?
I'm not so willing anymore to bend

Still pleasing and conceding
But I'm not gonna lose myself again