Fresh out of school, glad cause he hated it in the senior class'll call him gay but it It never him, his name Johnathan Best friend Julie, she was cool, she to prom with him The principal said prom was no for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy then it'd be trouble Empty threats, but really got to him Is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom him Boyfriend Roderick, kept the secret Scared to come out into world of zero tolerance Kinda popular, a lot of politics Johnathan was book smart, received a scholarship Off to college, Roderick to follow him He see him in the halls but Rod would acknowledge him Away from though, he was so affectionate John had a thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in college everything would be Everyone is educated, no one be tripping He had it all out Plus his parents were excited to get him out the house So they bought him a ticket, even bought one for Said to leave the end of summer, would pay for all of it So excited on his way to at In-N-Out End of his shift, he drove straight up to Roderick's He hopped out, saw him with his He walked up, he was ready to share the news It had been a few days, he forgot how much he him So excited that he moved in and him dissed him, threw him to the floor He said, "you faggot! What'd you to do that for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They just shook their heads, turned and walked ("Fuck. wrong with you?") Now screaming at Johnathan, what the hell was wrong with him John said, "Okay, it's Let's be honest then They knew the real you, they not your real friends" He drove away and vowed to speak to him again It had a few weeks Before left for college, he thought that they should speak to do it, for fear of rejection But either way, he the world would never accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, you're telling that to kids too.) Roderick was seventeen, in and out of jail ten Never his father or spent time with any other men He started running in them with the hustlers Gangbanging, dope slanging, had loyal customers Locked him up at a very age religion and it ended all his criminal ways He also found his first boyfriend when he was up Came home conflicted so he really didn't much beginnings of a double life The back in juve used to tell him that it wasn't right His with God was strong That was until he met And it so perfect But eternal damnation, was it worth it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew that he could never him So he lived in of God's wrath The preacher said God loves us all except And that made him so mad he packing his bags Said he'd run with John until it went all bad John in front of his friends and started kissing him Now everything was He shut him out, never thought about him he got that text John wanted to meet up the day next met at In-N-Out, on his dinner break But he was so mad that he look him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both started Said he missed him so much, he felt he was dying said, "I can't describe how much I missed you" That's Roderick pulled his pistol He him right between the eyes Then turned it on cause he refused to live a lie Suicide was his beliefs But it was the only way they'd ever find peace