Fresh out of high school, glad cause he it in the senior class'll call him gay but it It never bothered him, his name Best friend Julie, she was cool, she went to prom him The said prom was no place for a queer couple If he up with a boy then it'd be real trouble threats, but what really got to him Is that his boyfriend didn't go to prom with him Roderick, kept the secret closeted Scared to come out this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular, played a lot of Johnathan was book smart, received a scholarship Off to college, wanted Roderick to him He see him in the but Rod would never acknowledge him Away from school though, he was so John had a thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in college would be different is educated, no one would be tripping He had it all out Plus his parents were excited just to get him out the So they bought him a ticket, bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer, would pay for all of it So excited on his way to at In-N-Out End of his shift, he drove straight up to house He out, saw him with his crew He right up, he was ready to share the news It had been a few days, he forgot how he missed him So excited he moved in and kissed him Roderick dissed him, threw him to the He said, "you faggot! What'd you to do that for?" at his homies, "You know I'm not gay" They just their heads, turned and walked away ("Fuck. Fuck's wrong you?") Now he's screaming at Johnathan, the hell was wrong with him John said, "Okay, it's over? Let's be then They never the real you, they not your real friends" He drove away and to never speak to him again It had a few weeks Before John left for college, he thought that should speak Scared to do it, for of rejection But either way, he knew the world would never him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, telling that to kids too.) Roderick was seventeen, in and out of jail ten knew his father or spent time with any other men He started running in them with the hustlers Gangbanging, dope slanging, had loyal customers Locked him up at a young age religion and it ended all his criminal ways He also found his first when he was locked up Came home conflicted so he really didn't talk Felt beginnings of a life The chaplain back in juve used to him that it wasn't right His bond God was strong That was until he met And it so perfect But suffering eternal damnation, was it it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew that he could never him So he lived in of God's wrath The preacher said God loves us all fags And that made him so mad he packing his bags Said he'd run away with John it went all bad John in front of his friends and started kissing him Now was different He him out, never thought about forgiving him Until he got that wanted to meet up the day after next They met at In-N-Out, on his break But he was so mad that he look him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both started Said he missed him so much, he felt like he was John said, "I can't how much I missed you" That's when Roderick his pistol He shot him right the eyes turned it on hisself cause he refused to live a lie Suicide was against his But knew it was the only way they'd ever find