Fresh out of school, glad cause he hated it Everybody in the senior call him gay but it It never bothered him, his name Best Julie, she was cool, she went to prom with him The principal said prom was no place for a couple If he showed up a boy then it'd be real trouble threats, but what really got to him Is his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom with him Boyfriend Roderick, the secret closeted Scared to come out this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular, played a lot of Johnathan was book smart, just a scholarship Off to college, wanted to follow him He see him in the but Rod would never acknowledge him Away school though, he was so affectionate John had a thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in college everything would be Everyone is educated, no one be tripping He had it all out Plus his parents were excited just to get him out the So they bought him a ticket, bought one for Roderick to leave the end of summer, they would pay for all of it So excited on his way to work at End of his shift, he drove straight up to Roderick's He hopped out, saw him with his He walked right up, he was to share the news It had a few days, he forgot how much he missed him So excited that he in and kissed him Roderick him, threw him to the floor He said, "you faggot! you have to do that for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They just their heads, turned and walked away ("Fuck. Fuck's wrong you?") Now screaming at Johnathan, what the hell was wrong with him said, "Okay, it's over? Let's be honest then They never knew the real you, they not your friends" He drove and vowed to never speak to him again It had been a few Before John for college, he thought that they should speak to do it, for fear of rejection But either way, he the world would never accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't their country openly or marry the person that they love, you're telling that to kids too.) Roderick was seventeen, in and out of since ten Never knew his father or time with any other men He started running in circles with the hustlers Gangbanging, dope slanging, had some loyal Locked him up at a young age Found religion and it all his criminal ways He also found his boyfriend when he was locked up Came home conflicted so he really didn't talk beginnings of a double life The chaplain back in juve to tell him that it wasn't right His with God was strong That was until he met And it so perfect But suffering eternal damnation, was it it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew that he could leave him So he lived in of God's wrath The preacher said God us all except fags And made him so mad he started packing his bags he'd run away with John until it went all bad John slipped in of his friends and started kissing him Now everything was He him out, never thought about forgiving him he got that text John wanted to meet up the day next They met at In-N-Out, on his break But he was so mad he couldn't look him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both crying Said he missed him so much, he like he was dying John said, "I describe how much I missed you" when Roderick pulled his pistol He shot him right between the Then turned it on hisself cause he refused to a lie Suicide was his beliefs But it was the only way they'd ever find peace