Fresh out of school, glad cause he hated it Everybody in the class'll call him gay but it It never him, his name Johnathan friend Julie, she was cool, she went to prom with him The principal said prom was no place for a queer If he showed up with a boy then it'd be real threats, but what really got to him Is that his boyfriend didn't go to prom with him Boyfriend Roderick, kept the secret Scared to come out into this world of tolerance Kinda popular, played a lot of Johnathan was book smart, received a scholarship Off to college, wanted to follow him He see him in the halls but Rod would acknowledge him from school though, he was so affectionate John had a good thing, no use in it Besides in college would be different is educated, no one would be tripping He had it all out Plus his were excited just to get him out the house So bought him a ticket, even bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer, would pay for all of it So on his way to work at In-N-Out End of his shift, he drove up to Roderick's house He hopped out, saw him his crew He walked right up, he was ready to share the It had been a few days, he how much he missed him So excited that he moved in and him Roderick dissed him, threw him to the He said, "you faggot! What'd you have to do for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They shook their heads, turned and walked away ("Fuck. wrong with you?") Now he's at Johnathan, what the hell was wrong with him John said, "Okay, it's over? Let's be then never knew the real you, they not your real friends" He drove away and vowed to speak to him again It had been a few Before John left for college, he thought they should speak Scared to do it, for of rejection But either way, he knew the world would accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, telling that to kids too.) was seventeen, in and out of jail since ten Never knew his father or spent time with any men He running in them circles with the hustlers Gangbanging, dope slanging, had some loyal Locked him up at a young age Found religion and it ended all his ways He also found his first boyfriend he was locked up Came home so he really didn't talk much beginnings of a double life The chaplain back in juve to tell him that it wasn't right His bond God was strong was until he met John And it felt so But suffering eternal damnation, was it it? He had to see him It had two years, he knew that he could never leave him So he lived in fear of God's The preacher said God loves us all except And that him so mad he started packing his bags Said he'd run away with John it went all bad John slipped in of his friends and started kissing him Now was different He shut him out, never about forgiving him he got that text John wanted to meet up the day after met at In-N-Out, on his dinner break But he was so mad that he couldn't him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both crying Said he missed him so much, he felt like he was John said, "I can't describe how I missed you" That's when Roderick his pistol He him right between the eyes Then turned it on hisself he refused to live a lie Suicide was his beliefs But knew it was the only way they'd find peace