Fresh out of high school, cause he hated it Everybody in the senior call him gay but it It never bothered him, his Johnathan friend Julie, she was cool, she went to prom with him The said prom was no place for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy it'd be real trouble threats, but what really got to him Is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom him Boyfriend Roderick, kept the secret Scared to out into this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular, a lot of politics was book smart, just received a scholarship Off to college, Roderick to follow him He see him in the halls but Rod would acknowledge him Away from though, he was so affectionate had a good thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in college would be different is educated, no one would be tripping He had it all out his parents were excited just to get him out the house So they him a ticket, even bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer, they pay for all of it So on his way to work at In-N-Out End of his shift, he drove straight up to Roderick's He hopped out, saw him with his He right up, he was ready to share the news It had been a few days, he how much he missed him So that he moved in and kissed him dissed him, threw him to the floor He said, "you faggot! What'd you to do that for?" at his homies, "You know I'm not gay" They just shook their heads, turned and away ("Fuck. Fuck's wrong you?") Now he's at Johnathan, what the hell was wrong with him John said, "Okay, it's over? Let's be then They never the real you, they not your real friends" He drove away and vowed to never to him again It had been a few Before John for college, he thought that they should speak Scared to do it, for fear of But either way, he knew the world never accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, telling that to kids too.) was seventeen, in and out of jail since ten Never his father or spent time with any other men He started running in circles with the hustlers Gangbanging, slanging, had some loyal customers Locked him up at a very age Found religion and it ended all his criminal He also found his boyfriend when he was locked up home conflicted so he really didn't talk much Felt beginnings of a life The chaplain back in used to tell him that it wasn't right His bond God was strong That was he met John And it so perfect But suffering damnation, was it worth it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew that he never leave him So he lived in fear of wrath The preacher said God loves us all fags And that made him so mad he started packing his Said he'd run away with John until it all bad John slipped in front of his and started kissing him Now was different He shut him out, never thought forgiving him he got that text John wanted to meet up the day next They met at In-N-Out, on his break But he was so mad that he couldn't look him in the Soon as he spoke, they both crying he missed him so much, he felt like he was dying John said, "I can't how much I missed you" That's Roderick pulled his pistol He shot him right between the Then turned it on cause he refused to live a lie Suicide was against his But knew it was the only way they'd ever find