Fresh out of high school, glad he hated it Everybody in the class'll call him gay but it It never bothered him, his name Best Julie, she was cool, she went to prom with him The principal said was no place for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy then it'd be trouble threats, but what really got to him Is his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom with him Boyfriend Roderick, kept the secret Scared to come out into this world of tolerance popular, played a lot of politics Johnathan was book smart, received a scholarship Off to college, wanted to follow him He see him in the halls but Rod would acknowledge him Away school though, he was so affectionate had a good thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in college would be different Everyone is educated, no one be tripping He had it all out Plus his parents were excited just to get him out the So bought him a ticket, even bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer, they pay for all of it So excited on his way to work at End of his shift, he drove up to Roderick's house He out, saw him with his crew He walked right up, he was to share the news It had a few days, he forgot how much he missed him So excited he moved in and kissed him Roderick dissed him, threw him to the He said, "you faggot! What'd you have to do for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They just shook their heads, and walked away ("Fuck. wrong with you?") Now he's screaming at Johnathan, what the hell was with him John said, "Okay, it's Let's be honest then They never knew the you, they not your real friends" He away and vowed to never speak to him again It had a few weeks Before John left for college, he thought they should speak Scared to do it, for fear of But either way, he knew the world would never him (Dear America, you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, you're telling that to kids too.) was seventeen, in and out of jail since ten Never his father or spent time with any other men He running in them circles with the hustlers Gangbanging, dope slanging, had some customers Locked him up at a young age Found religion and it ended all his ways He also his first boyfriend when he was locked up Came home conflicted so he didn't talk much Felt of a double life The chaplain back in used to tell him that it wasn't right His bond with God was was until he met John And it felt so But eternal damnation, was it worth it? He had to see him It had been two years, he that he could never leave him So he lived in fear of God's The preacher said God us all except fags And that made him so mad he started packing his Said he'd run away with John until it all bad John in front of his friends and started kissing him Now everything was He shut him out, never thought forgiving him he got that text John to meet up the day after next They met at In-N-Out, on his dinner But he was so mad he couldn't look him in the face as he spoke, they both started crying Said he missed him so much, he felt he was dying John said, "I can't describe how much I you" That's when Roderick pulled his He shot him right the eyes Then turned it on hisself he refused to live a lie was against his beliefs But knew it was the only way they'd ever find