Fresh out of high school, glad he hated it in the senior class'll call him gay but it It never bothered him, his name friend Julie, she was cool, she went to prom with him The principal prom was no place for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy then it'd be trouble Empty threats, but really got to him Is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to with him Roderick, kept the secret closeted Scared to come out this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular, a lot of politics Johnathan was book smart, received a scholarship Off to college, wanted to follow him He see him in the halls but Rod would acknowledge him Away from though, he was so affectionate John had a thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in college would be different is educated, no one would be tripping He had it all out Plus his parents were excited to get him out the house So they him a ticket, even bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer, they pay for all of it So on his way to work at In-N-Out End of his shift, he straight up to Roderick's house He hopped out, saw him his crew He walked up, he was ready to share the news It had been a few days, he forgot how he missed him So excited he moved in and kissed him Roderick dissed him, him to the floor He said, "you faggot! What'd you to do that for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They just their heads, turned and walked away ("Fuck. Fuck's with you?") Now he's at Johnathan, what the hell was wrong with him John said, "Okay, it's over? be honest then They knew the real you, they not your real friends" He away and vowed to never speak to him again It had been a few Before John left for college, he thought that should speak Scared to do it, for of rejection But way, he knew the world would never accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, you're that to kids too.) Roderick was seventeen, in and out of since ten Never knew his father or spent time with any men He started running in them circles the hustlers Gangbanging, dope slanging, had loyal customers Locked him up at a young age Found religion and it all his criminal ways He also found his first boyfriend when he was up home conflicted so he really didn't talk much Felt beginnings of a life The chaplain back in used to tell him that it wasn't right His bond God was strong That was until he met And it felt so But suffering eternal damnation, was it it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew that he never leave him So he lived in of God's wrath The preacher said God loves us all except And that made him so mad he packing his bags Said he'd run away John until it went all bad slipped in front of his friends and started kissing him Now was different He him out, never thought about forgiving him he got that text John wanted to meet up the day next met at In-N-Out, on his dinner break But he was so mad he couldn't look him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both crying Said he missed him so much, he felt he was dying John said, "I describe how much I missed you" That's Roderick pulled his pistol He shot him right the eyes turned it on hisself cause he refused to live a lie Suicide was against his But knew it was the way they'd ever find peace