Fresh out of high school, glad he hated it Everybody in the senior call him gay but it It never bothered him, his Johnathan Best friend Julie, she was cool, she went to with him The principal said prom was no place for a couple If he showed up with a boy it'd be real trouble threats, but what really got to him Is that his boyfriend wanna go to prom with him Roderick, kept the secret closeted Scared to come out into this of zero tolerance popular, played a lot of politics Johnathan was book smart, just a scholarship Off to college, Roderick to follow him He see him in the but Rod would never acknowledge him Away school though, he was so affectionate had a good thing, no use in upsetting it Besides in everything would be different Everyone is educated, no one would be He had it all out Plus his parents were excited just to get him out the So they bought him a ticket, even one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer, they pay for all of it So excited on his way to work at End of his shift, he drove straight up to Roderick's He hopped out, saw him with his He walked right up, he was to share the news It had been a few days, he forgot how he missed him So that he moved in and kissed him dissed him, threw him to the floor He said, "you faggot! What'd you have to do for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They just shook their heads, turned and away ("Fuck. Fuck's with you?") Now he's screaming at Johnathan, what the was wrong with him said, "Okay, it's over? Let's be honest then They never knew the real you, not your real friends" He drove and vowed to never speak to him again It had been a few Before John left for college, he thought that they speak to do it, for fear of rejection But either way, he knew the world would accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, you're telling to kids too.) Roderick was seventeen, in and out of since ten knew his father or spent time with any other men He started running in them circles with the Gangbanging, dope slanging, had some customers Locked him up at a young age religion and it ended all his criminal ways He found his first boyfriend when he was locked up Came home conflicted so he didn't talk much Felt beginnings of a life The chaplain back in juve used to tell him that it wasn't His with God was strong That was he met John And it so perfect But eternal damnation, was it worth it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew he could never leave him So he in fear of God's wrath The preacher said God loves us all except And made him so mad he started packing his bags Said he'd run with John until it went all bad John slipped in front of his and started kissing him Now everything was He shut him out, never about forgiving him Until he got text John wanted to meet up the day next met at In-N-Out, on his dinner break But he was so mad he couldn't look him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both started he missed him so much, he felt like he was dying John said, "I can't describe how much I you" That's when Roderick pulled his He shot him right the eyes Then it on hisself cause he refused to live a lie Suicide was against his But it was the only way they'd ever find peace