Fresh out of school, glad cause he hated it Everybody in the class'll call him gay but it It never bothered him, his name Best Julie, she was cool, she went to prom with him The principal said was no place for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy then it'd be real threats, but what really got to him Is that his boyfriend wanna go to prom with him Boyfriend Roderick, the secret closeted to come out into this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular, a lot of politics was book smart, just received a scholarship Off to college, Roderick to follow him He see him in the but Rod would never acknowledge him Away school though, he was so affectionate John had a good thing, no use in it Besides in college everything would be Everyone is educated, no one would be He had it all out Plus his parents excited just to get him out the house So they him a ticket, even bought one for Roderick to leave the end of summer, they would pay for all of it So on his way to work at In-N-Out End of his shift, he drove straight up to house He out, saw him with his crew He right up, he was ready to share the news It had been a few days, he forgot how much he him So excited that he moved in and him dissed him, threw him to the floor He said, "you faggot! What'd you have to do for?" Looked at his homies, "You I'm not gay" They just shook their heads, turned and walked ("Fuck. wrong with you?") Now he's screaming at Johnathan, what the hell was with him John said, "Okay, over? Let's be honest then They never knew the real you, not your real friends" He drove away and vowed to never to him again It had been a few Before John left for college, he thought that should speak Scared to do it, for fear of But either way, he knew the world never accept him (Dear America, when you tell gay Americans that they can't serve their country openly or the person that they love, you're telling that to kids too.) Roderick was seventeen, in and out of jail ten Never his father or spent time with any other men He started running in them circles with the Gangbanging, dope slanging, had some loyal Locked him up at a very age Found and it ended all his criminal ways He also found his first boyfriend when he was up Came home conflicted so he really didn't talk Felt beginnings of a life The chaplain back in juve used to him that it wasn't right His bond God was strong was until he met John And it so perfect But suffering eternal damnation, was it it? He had to see him It had been two years, he knew that he could leave him So he lived in of God's wrath The preacher said God us all except fags And made him so mad he started packing his bags Said he'd run away with John it went all bad John slipped in of his friends and started kissing him Now was different He shut him out, never about forgiving him Until he got that wanted to meet up the day after next They met at In-N-Out, on his break But he was so mad he couldn't look him in the face Soon as he spoke, they both started Said he missed him so much, he felt he was dying John said, "I can't how much I missed you" That's when pulled his pistol He him right between the eyes Then turned it on hisself cause he refused to a lie Suicide was against his But knew it was the way they'd ever find peace