Again & Again

It began sometime last week
The feeling that most everything
Was changing for the worse
All the triggers pulled at once
So begins my ugly fall from grace again

I made myself delusional
A noble stab at staying upbeat
But it was only for a while
I tried my best to radiate
Through hurricanes and double eights
The pair split into two

I'm talking points, I'm up on high
Watch me walk the ledge
I am comfortable out here by myself
You could never reach me here

Words distorted in the wind
Landed softly there beneath the trees
Our trip to California
Don't say I didn't try to warn ya

Put down the cell phone and try to be with me
Did you see me disappear?
Like vapor rolling through the hills
And then the silence of your name

I never found the trust I needed from you
Everything you did was making me wonder
My biggest mistake was taking you back
Again and again

I couldn't forgive the things that you did
I'm glad it worked out for you
But you're only foolin' yourself
If you think you won't do it again and again

Sad attempt at poetry
Sad attempt at happiness
The sadness of reality
I'm okay, I've been okay, I stay okay

I took the bullets from the cardboard
Tossed them in my backpack
Placed a set of keys inside the grill
I locked the title to the house
Inside the piano bench
And my lawyers got the will

I never found the trust I needed from you
Everything you did was making me wonder
My biggest mistake was taking you back
Again and again

I couldn't forgive the things that you did
I'm glad it worked out for you
But you're only foolin' yourself
If you think you won't do it again and again