Absent

I breathe the absence of life
In a part of every breath I take
Inhaling afterthoughts
Of ruin and regret

So no hope remains
As I take another glass of pain
And I swallow knowing
Things will stay the same

When I see that everything
Has gone so wrong for me
And I wait and see
If I can welcome back the light

I'm following the suffering
And the ones that never heal
They're a part of me
I can't leave them behind

So I cry these acid tears
As I weep for those like me
The ones whose apathy
Adheres them to this fate

So I lie awake and the bottle
Always calls my name
With an offering
That I cannot refuse

Who will come, come to taste
The quality of despair
It's so sweet that I enjoy it
Time and time again

Is it charity that calls to me
Selling fragments of her soul
Is a part of me
Foolish enough to indulge

When the time comes
Let the blow come quick
And the blood run red
I worry not, I'm already dead

So I'll not speak my last words
For I've already said enough
It's painted on the walls

So will you bleed for me
And together we will cross the sea
Two for the ferryman
To take our souls across

When I see that everything
Has gone so wrong for me
And I wait to see if I can
Welcome back the light

I'm following the suffering
For the best parts of my life
They're a part of me
But I'm not the only one