A Look Back

Please allow me to present my recollection
Of when my life took a major change in direction
I've heard people talk through the years and seen intention
To offer fabrication and relay a misconception so
Let's set the record straight, commemorate
The biggest obstacle I've overcome I need to separate
The fact from the fiction, the crack smack addiction
Emotions that this period would generate
Secondary school, where the shit began
Me and my three best pals started to hit the can
Sniffing aerosols, smoking draw, taking gas
Sparking up one after another and evading class
I let wanting to be accepted get the better of me
And that quest for popularity eventually rob me
Of the chance to realise my capabilities
But I was too busy with thieving, lies and taking liberties

Make it, no more hurting when you cry
You're gonna make it
No more teardrops from the sky
You're gonna make it
No more saying your goodbyes
You're gonna make it
You can make it if you try
You're gonna make it

So smoking weed was becoming a habit
And your brain is such a terrible thing to waste doing nothing is tragic
Dropped one of my A Levels
Not cos of my abilities but for extra curricular activities
Then came the raves, finding ecstasy
And a subject that over time I'd find perplexing me
You see my so called mates were just a bunch of twats
And that's another part of my life full of complexity
Over time I guess the raves weren't enough
Cos certain members of the faculty had started burning stuff
That was completely inappropriate
Known as scag, H, brown, smack, tings or known as opiate
And like a little prick Jimmy stayed and hung around
Even though I'd already been made to look a clown
It still took some time for me to eventually succumb
But when I did it twisted my character left me feeling numb

Make it, no more hurting when you cry
You're gonna make it
No more teardrops from the sky
You're gonna make it
No more saying your goodbyes
You're gonna make it
You can make it if you try
You're gonna make it

So 6 months chasing the dragon was admittedly
The worst time of my life I was smoking crack intermittently
I heard some crackhead shit, prick at least I overcame
D'ya say that to your mates who everyone week are sniffing cocaine?
It's all the same shite
I used this episode to make me stronger, spur me on and always keep the flame alight
See I got through it when I was left alone
And not once did I see a bottle of methadone
But this is no sob story I don't want sympathy
It's just setting it straight for the wankers who've got it in for me
And a chance to apologise to my family
For everything I did the enormity and the gravity
Of my actions, are a burden
That I'll carry with me until they're closing the curtain
Even if I fucking settle out in St Tropez
I'd never change my past cos its made me the man I am today

Make it, no more hurting when you cry
You're gonna make it
No more teardrops from the sky
You're gonna make it
No more saying your goodbyes
You're gonna make it
You can make it if you try
You're gonna make it