You Dissolve

watching you like this
tears me apart
you regress your feelings
the guilt is all mine
I can't forget a feeling like it meant nothing
torn in two as you
regress this frustration
this walls are closing in on me - my wrists feel so weak
this urge never overcame me so strong
like thorns in my eyes I hear your voice still silent in my ears
in dreams I smile - in consciousness I cry
what happened to the promises?
your lies and hatred
you shut me out
became what you despised magnified
I know it would hurt you but I wish I could just wake you up
you're not waking up this time
set yourself up for self-destruction again
you're not waking up