You'd Think By Now

It isn't fair, it isn't right
I've gone over and over the scenes in my head
Laid here awake both half of the night
And it isn't good, and I can't let go
Must have been someone or something I hurt
In some other life somewhere long ago

And I don't know how I started down this tailspin
Why one more time I just did not see it coming
And you'd think by now
I'd figured out the pattern

I shook my fist, I left too soon
The soft wounded animal inside of me
Stood up on its hind legs and howled at the moon
Anger rises in a violent storm
And when I am the wisest I lay down beside it
And hum in it's ear until it gets quiet

I don't know how I started down this tailspin
Why one more time I just did not see it coming
And you'd think by now
I'd figured out the pattern

I don't know how I started down this tailspin
Why one more time I just did not see it coming
And you'd think by now
I'd figured out the pattern

It isn't fair, it isn't right
I've wished on a million or billion bright stars
Prayed like the devil with all of my might
And somebody said, "What's really true
All of this stuff is different I know
But what is in common has always been you"

I'm learning to see, the heavens are so starry
If I'm not too proud I'll learn to say I'm sorry
And you'd think by now I'd figured out the pattern