Why I Have My Grandma's Sad Eyes

It started like this
I was here, right, standing, leaning back
My deer in the headlights, look never fails
But hearing all the things that you said
Cut me to the core, blew me away

Like I got hit with a gunshot, like a bomb dropped
Stabbed with a white hot knife in the heart
While all these people still ask me, why?
Why I have my grandma's sad eyes?

Now you know why
'Cause this time I didn't see it coming
Couldn't stop the running words out your mouth
They're leaving me crushed
Sound louder than bombs hit harder than mack trucks

On highways, knock me down
Now like the chump with the black eye
Hit with the uppercut
It tastes like blood and a case
Of ice cold pure devastation

I may never stand up again
I will never go out again, again

Oh fuck, if this is the end
Then I just want revenge
I just want to take you down with me
I've been so mad and furious
Love must be just for idiots

I'm shutting down, breaking down
Getting out of this shit hole ghost town
'Cause all these people still ask me, why?
Why I have my grandma's sad eyes?

I must have my grandma's sad eyes
Why I have my grandma's sad eyes?

Time's past, just like a gasp
From some tiny cell inside that won't die
Sending out a quiet ping like a submarine
A lost transmission from a distant galaxy

So reach way down in the dark
To the bottom of my rotten heart

To a place deep in my black lung
For the song I haven't sung
Since I was a little brat from Connecticut
When I felt so alone against the world
Picked always last

It saved me then, will it save me now?
It saved me then, will it save me now?

It goes, universe, wrap your arms around me
Make me strong so I can take on anyone
Universe, wrap your arms around me
Make me strong so I can take on anyone

I must have my grandma's sad eyes
I must have my grandma's sad eyes
Now you know why, now you know why
Now you know why, now you know why
Now you know