Where are we now?

lifetime of infrequent contact.
as seldom as abstract.
hesitant hugs and handshakes.
no big deal, I never asked for much.


you will always be my father,
but it's up to you to define the kind of dad I will have had.


where are we now?
you broke with me.
where are we now?
for reasons I don't see

and this is such a disappointment.


the more I think about this the more upset and angrier I get,
the more my image of you changes from the one I once had.