When I Hated Him

In the silent parlor room, if I'd remember to
Keep it down for you, like you asked me to
Did that hurt too much? Baby, did it last long enough?
It was fine for me, it was fine for me

I'll go dry off now, this stuff is sticky
It's a little hot in here, dear, can you turn up the air?
And don't tell me that you want me to see you this way
If I were weaker and you loved me, would you still act this way?

I'm sitting on the floor and I don't feel no more
I'm not prepared to and I don't dare to
It's so dark in here and something smells like fear
Now you're sleeping while I'm conceiving

I'll find my own way out, you'll find the letter
I'm a little weak but you like that better
I don't think that you want to see me this way
'Cause I'd kill you and I'd leave you and never speak your name

And don't tell me that you want me to see you this way
If I were weaker and you loved me, would you still act this way?

The roads are wet and I can't remember your face
As I'm driving away in this, in this taxi cab
And the driver said, "Are you sure you want to leave him?"

Don't I need to get these scars off my face
And I'm bleeding, not just in front of you but in every single place
Don't you think that I want to see him in a different way
If he were weaker and I still loved him, waybe it wouldn't be this way?