Watch Me Read You

watch me read you
the turning pages of an epic
dissected hallucinogenic
black coffee addict
life, ended lies
cold on that metal tray
wasting away
i watch him sneer at me from beyond the grave
i hear him call for me

watch me read you
i get scared when it falls dark
The creeping shadows up my arm
the sneaking scarecrows work their charm
but circumstantial*
the way i blink when you get mad
i feel disarmed when you get sad
but turn to run when we fall back
on old behaviors
when the flavor turns from sweet to sour
that's the hour that i seek the heavy hearts
and tie the trees with words of hatred*
watch it seep through skin like sap to bark
i cower in the dark to your return
when will i learn?

we never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
breathe in the smoke from mother's
muzzle lying in the dirt
so make a promise but then later we can just forget
its hard to let your breathe out
when you used to hold it in

She'll go oh
got out through the window oh
it's her oh
maybe just a shadow

you never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
but when you grab the light*
Reflects i see you again*

the beautiful colors on people's facaes
and the way they sat on top of those necks

Watch me read you
like words ripped right off the page
another ghost, another day
of melancholy, UV rays, and heavy eye lids
you've just decided not to care
compressed your fears and cut your hair
lifted your shirt to find there's nothing there

now read me
red wine, copper stain, curly hair
crazy eyes, impulsive mouth
she loves the rain but not the dark
you feel insane
the overcast is wet with blood
she turns to you to say
hey, we can't exist

and in that moment, it's just bliss
it's like you missed a thousand years
and as you kiss, it's like you drift
between here and there
between real and fake
as i hold my breathe
i can't see your face

watch me read me, read you, read them, read us
everyone's a burning book
i trust and lust and love
in what we are and what we're made of

we never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
breathe in the smoke from mother's
muzzle lying in the dirt
so make a promise but then later we can just forget
its hard to let your breathe out
when you used to hold it in

She'll go oh
got out through the window oh
it's her oh
maybe just a shadow

you never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
but when you grab the light*
Reflects i see you again*

so don't you see me, oh you surround me
it's getting harder babe to focus on just one thing
it's enigmatic, truly astounding
the way we stand together
but we are so drifting
you are so absent, oh
but you consume me oh
and when the sun goes down
the night, it wraps around me
you try to stand still oh
i can't help moving oh
you're like the moon that joins the tide that rushes through me

we never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
breathe in the smoke from mother's
muzzle lying in the dirt
so make a promise but then later we can just forget
its hard to let your breathe out
when you used to hold it in

She'll go oh
got out through the window oh
it's her oh
maybe just a shadow

you never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
but when you grab the light*
Reflects i see you again*
i see you again

i watch you read me
the burning pages of my life
reduced to ash and overnight
i find my body is not mine