Unrest

Can You hear me? Is my voice loud enough? Why do I hear silence? I am restless. In this moment, quiet is getting louder. Im left here waiting, when will I get my answer? Hear me at the moment when I lose all. Dont give up on me, I know Im frail and unclean. I need strength to get back down on my knees. How long will I hear quiet through the trials and the violence that threaten my thoughts screaming Im alone? Im not good with intentions to reveal my cause. You have spoken, my hardened heart shut You out. Forgive me, I know Im selfish, unworthy. I am nothing without Your love for me. I said not to You with how I want everything. Your silence has been screaming while my ignorance has left me deaf to your calling. To Your meaning, I know You hear me, Your silent screams leave me undeserving. This time Ill shut up and learn. This time Ill learn to listen. You can hear me, my voice is loud enough, its not Your silence, its my ignorance. Hear my voice, renew my mind, speak to me.