Undecided

drink down what i want to be
and ever from a glass that is half empty
down to my last dime, as such
and optimism costs too much
now seeing double it seems
under the influence of these dreams
the outcome too early to tell
but it isn't going very well
so i stagger on
but if this keeps up
it won't be long
till i'm forced to choose
how much time can i loose?
but i'm not ready
to trade in my dream
for security
so i won't be bought
not when i've got a shot
someone tell me what to do
anyone who cares, anyone will do
or i'll put everything on the shelf
and sit here and absorb myself