This Madness

There are some questions that
I've been meaning to ask you
I found them swimming
Around in my brain
I know you promised
That nothing is beyond You
So I better ask before I go insane

Why do I do what I don't wanna do
When I don't do the things
That I know really should do
I'm a walking contradiction
Of the things that I do
And the things that I say I believe

But you know the way I wanna be
And I know that's
The kind of God you are
Somehow you can see
The beauty in this mess
Only You can make sense
Of this madness

That sounds so simple you'd
Think I'd understand it
Maybe it just takes some time
For the truth
To sink in
I know Your mercies
Are new with every morning
So everyday I'm going
Pray this prayer all over again

Why do I do what I don't wanna do
When I don't do the things
That I know really should do
I'm a walking contradiction
Of the things that I do
And the things that I say I believe