Still Knee Deep

Dad, can you turn the TV down?
This won't take long, I've got something to say
Don't pour a drink, you've had enough
And when I'm done, I'll get out of your way

It's time to talk about it, we've been living in denial
It's time to have it out, still knee deep in shit
I guess I should get over it
It seems that nothing will hide the scar

I thought I didn't care to know that you were never there
I guess I always felt you were so far
I worked so hard to win your trust to earn respect
To get you to notice me, I won the game, I won the race

I had to be the best a room full of hollow trophies
I guess I did it for you, I don't think you ever noticed
I did it all for you, both feet on the ground
I wish you would calm down, I wish you would
Remember just who you really are

And I cannot forget you left me all alone
Never bothered to pick up the phone, I guess I'll hit the bar
There's nothing you can say to make it go away
There's nothing you can do, I don't rely on you
I thought that we could talk, I thought I could forgive
I thought that we could mend the fences