Stalemate

I've sought so hard to attain this gain
Now watch me give this ground away
What can I do but admit, I'm in over my head
Colors fade from blue to dark red

Backed into a corner by my choices
And I'm hearing those same dark voices
At the mercy of my desires
Helpless trivial, I'm left with no defenses

Stimulus response repeated failures
I'm sick this sickness fills my senses
But despite my apparent loss
I see release this stalemate my peace

Your wilderness is
Stalemate, you can't move against me
Stalemate, the walls built around me

Stalemate, you can't move against me
Stalemate, the walls built around me
Stalemate, you can't move against me
Stalemate, the walls built around me

And as this theme continues to follow close behind
I see so clearly, if I would only let go of my tendencies
Then I'd know what it is to be free
I can't win when I indulge this fantasy

Reduced as a pawn led to misery
"A little detour won't hurt, let me change you slowly
A moments pleasure but you'll owe me"

All encompassing defeat awaits the day
I choose to plunge and embrace this nightmare
But the night has an end and I see you

And you see me as the dawn of the one who's adopted
My ailment, my sickness, my stalemate
Reveals my blindness to my own condition

Your wilderness is
Stalemate, you can't move against me
Stalemate, the walls built around me

Stalemate, you can't move against me
Stalemate, the walls built around me
Stalemate, you can't move against me
Stalemate, the walls built around me

I'll still run away from
Six seconds of defeat, six years of agony
Still stand at odds with
Six seconds of defeat, six years of agony

I'll still run away from
Six seconds of defeat, six years of agony
Still stand at odds with
Six seconds of defeat, six years of agony

I'm senseless erode my senses
To fill my day with indulgence
Which leads to my undoing
I'll never look back, I'll never taste it again
I'll never stop, you can't stop me