So Many Nights

So many nights I prayed that this would just stop
Awoke out of my sleep by a sound of a popped lock
My heart would drop to the ground, maybe the fact
My pops wasn't around forced you to found these guys that would

Just knocked you down or beat you around I don't know
My innocence was lost back then not to be found
And in a sense it's like this world was just weighing me down
Leaning its weight hard on my shoulders

Making my heart less warm and much more colder
Chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulders
I told y'all that I don't play I seen drama every goddamn day
So go ahead, yip yab away, 'cause now you got a lot to say

Cast your judgments, cast all your stones
Holding my hands, holding on to everything I have
Because it's slipping away so fast and it's all I have

I was like 6 then, we had no pot to piss in
While most kids lives consists of shine and glisten
Mine was lined with mischief, a boy flipping
Devoid of times you find joy to reminisce in

It's like time was missing, years were passing
I was inside while kids were outside laughing
No time for games, their fake toy planes were crashing
While me my life was crashing

At night fist fight left my mom's face smashed in
Her man's blasted, he threw her down a flight of stairs
Alone and scared I stared in eyes of men who didn't care
My father was never there. now I am prepared for this

Lifetime that is unfair, in life I fight from the bottom to the top
In this life I had to fight for all that I got
It hurts but I still won't stop, 'til my casket drops

Cast your judgments, cast all your stones
Holding my hands, holding on to everything I have
Because it's slipping away so fast and it's all I have

Cast your judgments, cast all your stones
Holding my hands, holding on to everything I have
Because it's slipping away so fast and it's all I have

Cast your judgments, cast all your stones
Holding my hands, holding on to everything I have
Because it's slipping away so fast and it's all I have