She's Saving Me

We were sitting round a dying fire
Somebody lit incense, somebody lit a cigarette
And passed the bottle around
It was just strawberry season
Backbreakin' pickers in the patches
Every thing's burning down to ashes and down to the ground

She's saving me, I don't even think she knows it
It's a strange way to show it as distant
As last night's dream unravels
She's saving me, I'm a very lost soul
I was born with a hole in my heart
The size of my land locked travels

I try to put it aside but it's too much bigger than me
There's a big brown hawk in the tree
Lighting and leaving
And this tea leaves tossing
Heads up pennies in my pocket
Dead star like a rocket, the arc of my grieving

She's saving me, I don't even think she knows it
It's a strange way to show it as distant
As last night's dream unravels
She's saving me, I'm a very lost soul
I was born with a hole in my heart
The size of my land locked travels

The sky pours out biblical rain
Then days so still the beauty gives you pain
The heatwave kills the green and she remains unseen
But colors up my dream with all things blooming

This is not all there is, it's not a kingdom
It's not an angry God, it feels like her
It feels like no fear, it feels like no doubt
It feels like inside out, the ashes stir

She's saving me, I don't really think she knows it
It's a strange way to show it as distant
As last night's dream unravels
She's saving me, I'm a very lost soul
I was born with a hole in my heart
As wide as my land locked travels