Secret Curse

Secret Curse
anonymous hex on flavorless food and terrible sex
a day of no rhythm a night of no rest
and I do not know what sin I have not confessed

Secret Curse
terrible blight I'm deafened by sound and blinded by light
caught when I flee and beat when I fight and I'm cocky when wrong
and timid when right and I don't know what crimes have yet to come to light

But it's getting worse
indelible mark, tired at noon, wired at dark
a terrible bite, but never a bark, I don't know what else I can do

I don't know who you are... please, I'm sorry

Secret Curse
unwashable stain, ugly when bold, boring when plain
stricken with pleasure and taken with pain
and I'm nervous and lost and I can not refrain

Secret Curse
unsingable song, melody weird, getting it wrong
pussy when tender and brutal when strong
and I'm losing my friends as we're getting along
and I really do try to run that fast and long but it gets there first

Invisible eye, sad if I laugh, mad if I cry
screwed if I live, screwed if I die
I try and I try and I don't know what else I can do