Sayoko

There's nothing left to take but I still try to reach,
try to swallow it all down but I can't seem to breathe,
just a single pill of mine, nothing else will suffice.

I take it in now I'm alive.

My phone is set on lock and I don't really care,
there's a tangle and a not that I cannot repair,
I'm a tragedy I'm ugly I'm trying to hide.

I say hello then wave goodbye.

See me fall down let me die here slowly,
nothing goes right not a trace of honesty,
I'm to blame, so I'll remain,
Black, white, day, night, it's all the same.

See it run down cut away no worries,
say no more I can surely say that I've had enough,
I still refuse to believe.

Everyday would be the same,
nothing more, little change,
if I cared it would mean nothing,
it's all such a pain,
friendly bonds are so unneeded I don't give a damn.

A busy life is what I am.

Could it be that family was a way of escape,
didn't know if it was right so i threw it away,
couldn't take it anymore, I had taken enough.

So then I hid my need for love.

Lay me right down let me sleep I'm restless,
cover my eyes when I'm up I'll finally
fade away,
here today,
give me a reason then I'll stay,
if I could fly, if for only a moment,
there wouldn't be such a need for tragedy,
I'm alone, and that is how it'll be.

Why does everything I do cause tragedy?
why does everyone I know keep leaving me here?
why do I feel so empty inside?
I only want to die.

See me fall down let me die here slowly,
nothing goes right not a trace of honesty,
I'm to blame, so I'll remain,
Black, white, day, night, it's all the same.

See it run down cut away no worries,
say no more I can surely say that I've had enough,
I can't remember.

That very day,
That very day changed me,
Happiness died like a light I carried
I'll sleep tonight.
and hope to finally leave
a world which I don't believe,
I life which i don't need
now, I'll finally be free.