Petals

I've often wondered if there's
Ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for
Undividedness and sought stability

A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flailing in the wind
Like golden petals scattering

And I miss you dandelion and even love you
And I wish there was a way for me to trust you
But it hurts me every time I try to touch you
But I miss you dandelion and even love you

I gravitated towards a patriarch
So young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life
With a maze of misery

A boy and girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity

And I miss you little sis and little brother
And I hope you realize I'll always love you
And although you're struggling, you will recover
And I miss you little sis and little brother

So many I considered closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping away at me
They turned their eyes away and went home to sleep

And I missed a lot of life but I'll recover
Though I know you really like to see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, valentine and really loved you

I really loved you, I tried so hard
But you drove me away to preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
Fly