Not Even Close

You like to think that you know me
But perhaps don't even like me
I'm sure it's not unexpected
That any love will be rejected

I'm not eccentric in any way
Just watching my vulnerability
I'm just fed up with fake friends
I think I'll keep my thoughts to myself

You think that you're close to me
But I can see through you all

I used to think everyone was nice
But now I realize it's for a price
Too many people love themselves
So much they can't love anyone else

Used to say things secretly
Now say a word and it's used against me
Fed up with bitching backstabbers
I now know who my real friends are

So easy to say paranoid
A subject that you like to avoid
Don't really know a thing about me
Won't get to know me personally

Just believe what you are told
Isn't it just easier that way?
Take advantage of my good nature
Confide then turn around and hurt you