Not A Story

Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it

What am I doing right?
Feels like everything is going wrong
Im writing songs, tryna make a name in the game
Where I clearly dont belong
My will is strong my heart is too
Got big dreams gotta make them come true
But it gets tough when they say they believe in you
Even though your rent is due
I got some good friends and a great mom
Who keep me striving to move on
Up all night, writing this fucking songs
And my bank account is all overdrawn
And I hate my life Im so depressed
Everybody telling me Im next
But they dont see this fucking stress
Im a fucking mess, so my chest
I dont fuck with drugs I only see what they do
And Ive lost way too many friends to blues
And coke and pills, you know the drill
But you cant live life like its Beverly Hills
You gotta grow up, and its time for me to do that
You dont gotta live with your head in the glass
Just sniffing down
Theres more to life, theres more than lights
Theres more than blacked out and washed up nights
Theres more than cars, theres more than clothes
Look why gain the world if you loose your soul?
You can't be someone, you can't live your dreams
You dont wanna be a kardashian
Fuck what you see on the TV screen

Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it

What am I doing wrong?
I feel nothing here is going right
I can't sleep most nights
Cause I dont really know what I want out of my life
I'm just banking off of a hunch
Nobody told me I had a chance
Tryna do this shit on my own,
And I be honest to feel I can't
Cause I'm failing school while I'm on the road
And I might drop out I want to though
But why would I go through law school
If making music's my fucking goal
But mom says shes proud, and I hope she is
Shes about to lose her house,
And that aint the life she deserves to live
Cause she gave me everything when she had nothin'
Shes got nothing but good days coming
When I finally get something she'll have it all
Cause you dealt with my dead-beat dad who beat her ass
Every time he touched alcohol
She put up with too much rainfall
Restraining orders and all
Still made sure I was never involved
With a bum like him, or his scum ass friends
Who always suffered the same addictions
Sometimes it feels like it was all fiction
But really its a crazy world we live in
I dropped his last name as a kid, see
I couldnt affiliate with someone so shady
Who aint even know how to care for his baby
Or even how to treat his lady

Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Forever ... life, a story for you and I