Mutuality

I know this is not what you want to hear
we've built this place together all of these years
if you're filled with confusion we've done nothing wrong
looking at the pieces, I realized that we didn't have them all
When we began, my mind was young and the sun warmed my touch but it blinded my sight
back then I knew, we started to build our home through the summer underestimating the winters night
We kept on, We kept on, We kept, kept on building
I felt like we were too far in, too far in, too far in to stop
Now we need to salvage what we can
I saw our home approaching cold
walls and a roof that couldn't hold
although our fire provided warmth
the flame and foundations would not stay through the storms
we'll lift and take everything we laid
build with it, you'll be glad that we didn't stay
create a home warmer than one we could have made
all the pain that you're feeling resides within me
if I appear unaffected know I'm not empty
as you search for comfort, I hope you will see
the guilt that wrestles inside barely lets me breathe
and I can hardly speak about you