is monsters. Tits out, wet-mouthed, back. Shouting and screaming to prove they exist.
at the bar with the usual mix Of fabrics and desolate lighting. Everybody here has got a hyphenated name. Blowing more breeze Than the wind at the vane.
slimeballs, showbiz big-deals. The cool new with the retro feel, It's the wrap party for video. Becky in it. The director, Law, Head to toe in velour, Is holding court the science of image While the giggle and grimace. fidgets, tells herself, 'Must being so cynical, Everybody is a human, Even these pitiful posturing pop and idiots.' She tells to look again - is hideous.
So while Marshall Law is on about his artwork She smiles at the guy opposite, Bright eyes, shirt. He raises his in the direction of Marshall. 'My Becky,' she says, yours?'
She was like nothing that he'd before. body, soft edges, with something so raw In the of her iris. He his name, 'Harry'. And never in his had he felt so happy. got talking, Free bar. decorum He until she was so absorbing He out the party. The floor spun, he at her face and felt sure, Something was happening here.
He was nervous, His eyes kept doing of the room. He drank as as they could serve him, this dude comes over, Sticks out a hand, And looks at her Like he's just found in quicksand. He gives this guy a wrap, they shake Sweaty cash between palms, No fuss. bash, yes, bosh. He at her guiltily, She it off, smiling 'You a shotter then, I care.'
'Becky, all I wanted was a place of my own.' His eyes, and trusting, He's at her, desperate for something to click. He is opening up. is it. 'A real place, the whole bit, Like a speakeasy, and lights That shine off of the No hype, and no arseholes. of rotting our guts out In old boozers We can be men, listening to music, Real music. Played with by real bands, Not posers looking like they're Giving to mic stands. And be in a waistcoat, dead grand. Place. Or, at least, the plan.'
She was listening, not listening. Kept distracted by the lights flickering. He looks like an outline that needs in. He leans in close, starts
'The thing is, and weird, I felt so able, To like this to anybody, ever, Recently Becky, I've been really the pressure. I tell you how good it is To get off my chest.'
holding tight to her glass. Good coke, fast. She his face as he talks. bump on her fingertips Expert. snort. on a cigarette, feeling vaguely bored.
It's true if you it. The world is the But all how you see it. One man's flash of lightning through the air Is passing glare, hardly there. true if you believe it. The is the world But all how you see it. One man's flash of lightning through the air Is passing glare, hardly there.
'If I'm being honest, it is, It's a trap, I ain't trying to be I just to raise the cash for the dream. I hardly touch it Look, it that But I set myself a task, Well, ain't no going back. And I am there, I am, nearly, anyway, The is, I had to push all of my friends away. I can't have what I'm up to I keep it secret but the thing is I love to, for one day, You know, live any other guy. I can't a girlfriend, you see I don't like to lie. It's all round I just keep my head down. And, yeah, the is booming, Yeah, the is really booming. But my family think I in recruitment So, I get up morning And I put a shirt and on And I get on a train, I go up town. all professional users. I sell in the and not the boozers To, like, CEOs and modern day Scrooges Who get secretaries to bring me coffee, so stupid. Meant to be times, right, a recession? But these are buying more than ever, I reckon And I...
He's got eyes, Shame his issues, though. The party on, her cynicism's getting vicious, Show nothing, smiling.
She the eye of her mates, They're by the bar in a state. Nod for me' They understand, over, Put their around her shoulders - 'Becky, bored, let's go'. His mouth to a stop, He to lose his composure, She at him 'Yeah, was nice to know ya.'
No, not like that, leave. Please. Don't make her go, just got started.
Their teeth are bare, feet are planted smirking at him like he's dirt, And now his is Damp the fury of and losing This girl. He feels weak with confusion, What had he How had he talked? He watches them to the doors His roars.
In the back of the cab, the sit there giggling The driver them smoke out of the window So shivering. They pass a bottle of wine back and Let it against their teeth. The cab fast through the streets. 'Who was that guy you was shakes her head softly, 'Him? I know, probably alright, But I could he was one of them "save me" types, And I couldn't be with that. Not tonight.'