Maddening Disdain

And it came again, like tears for a long lost friend
Tears that find their rest
Amidst words too sordid to comprehend

And it came bearing gifts
Of pain, frankincense and her
None had a home here, none but the pain

Feel the fervor growing but the hate is stronger
My heart was whole with you
But the pain was mine, come twisted flowers
Come blistered soul, torturing disdain

And the wholeness that is only found in you
Feel the fervor growing but the hate is stronger
My heart was whole with you but the pain was mine

Come twisted flowers, come blistered soul
Maddening disdain and the wholeness that is only found in you
Can't hold it, can't keep it anymore
Can't hold it, can't keep it anymore, can't feed it anymore

And it came bearing gifts
Of pain, frankincense and her
None had a home here, none but the pain

And it left once more, alone amidst my words I stood
Uninviting of its presence, this time it's left for good
Feel the fervor growing but the hate is stronger
My heart was whole with you but the pain was mine

Come twisted flowers, come blistered soul
Torturing disdain and the wholeness that is only found in you
Feel the fervor growing but the hate is stronger

My heart was whole with you but the pain was mine
And when it's left forever, a better hand is dealt
And when it's gone forever, only then I can find myself