Lovers & Fighters

I've walked this road
And I've gone so far
Since I could capture
And put my thoughts
Into a jar
And release them to the stars
It's been so tough
I'm nearly caved in
I'm not enough
My soul is growing thin
Is this too much?
How could I ever win?

Am I just a fighter
Or am I a lover
Or maybe I'm just neither
Cause if I was a fighter
It seems I'd be a loser
And I don't think I love that

I felt the sunrise as I woke up
Left the bed I nearly choked up
When my reflection was the same as before
I can't explain the next moment
The stinging pain relentless torment
I'll never win and it feels so hopeless

I find myself, on the ocean floor
The waves crash down, and bring me to the shore
Cause beneath my regrets I lost sight of who I was fighting for
Maybe I can make it one day more

Cause maybe Your the fighter
And maybe Your the lover
And I don't think that I mind that
Cause when I was the fighter
And tried to be the lover
I fought myself to hatred
I think that I could love this