Lipstick Tonic

We're on the top as we sink
We're on the top when we forget
We're on the top of living
when we're on top of all regrets

This is just the beginning
It is a start of the change
When we realize
the sacrifice we have to make

This is not what you wanted
But you have brought it on yourself
Rewinding all the mistakes
reminding me of yesterday
Who would care if I was gone
When life goes on and on and on
Without me

With empty bottles behind my back
And the venom in my veins
A spew of words to the attack
Words I'd choke on for days
Months, and years we could have spent
But that's just a dream, with venom in my veins

Now when all the words are said
and all the promises lie dead
buried deep, among the fallen dreams they rest
From the grave they'll sing with me
this forgotten melody
not even gravity can hold me back to earth

Now you see me
You see my lipstick covered face
I didn't put it on
it ended up there by mistake
Don't look at me, just look away
I'm not to blame
So disengaged
It felt like such a good idea yesterday

With empty bottles behind my back
And the venom in my veins
A spew of words to the attack
Words I'd choke on for days
Months, and years we could have spent
But that's just a dream, with the venom in my veins

Now when all the words are said
and all the promises lie dead
buried deep, among the fallen dreams they rest
From the grave they'll sing with me
this forgotten melody
Feeling how gravity won't hold me back to earth

Now you'll never be coming back
I won't see your pretty face
just pray for a heart attack
Something to put me away
These few years that we have spent
Only one thing to regret
The fucking venom in my veins

Now when all the words are said
we let the silence scream instead
After all it's just another fucked love story
I'm not the actions that you see
nor am I what I used to be
Not even our history can hold me back to earth