In Denial

In denial, no, my life's a trial
I'm not denying that every little bit hurts
It's a problem that I'm not solving
Don't mind admitting, I feel like quitting this job
For a while, getting away before it gets any worse today

You're in denial and that is final
You're not admitting, you should be quitting
All these queens and fairies and muscle Marys
The rough trade boyfriend who in his pathetic own way
Denies he's gay, why can't you see? This is a fantasy world

I think I'm going mad
How d'you know if you're going mad?
Look at me, I'm lonely, look at me, I'm sad

I'm not denying I could be trying
A little harder to deal with some of this stuff
Know what I'm thinking? Less drugs and drinking
No cigarettes and you'd feel a little less rough
Is that enough? My life is absurd, I'm living it upside down

Like a vampire, working at night, sleeping all day
A dad with a girl who knows he's gay
Can you love me anyway?