I'm Trying

She said, "I'm not pointing fingers" and he said, "Yes you are
'Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't
If I told you I'd been walking out in the dark night thinking
Would you take his truth as alcholoics word?"

"I can't change what's done is done but I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying
And though I haven't kicked the demons that haunt me"

"I'm trying
I'm trying"

She sat down on the floor and said, "I wish I was stronger
Right now I feel fragile as glass
I want to believe you believe what's held you has freed you
And I hate these doubts that keep on coming back"

"My parents think I'm crazy for staying here this long
But there's nothing more I want for us than to prove to them they're wrong
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna think you're lying
And though I haven't found the faith yet, that I need"

"I'm trying
Oh, I'm trying"

He asked, "Do you want me to leave?
'Cause if you do, you know I will"
But she said, much to his disbelief
"No, I love you still"

He said, "I don't know why I've been the fool but I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins"
Then he dropped down to his knees, by now they both were crying
Said, "I haven't been the man I wanna be"

"But, I'm trying
Oh, I'm trying
I'm trying
Oh Lord, I'm trying"