I Live With It Every Day

On August 1st, 1981
I cycled to Scott's house with a BB gun
We were almost 12 but we looked 13
He had baby blue eyes that I shot him between

Nature provides for us a safety net
Whatever we do, we can never forget

I live with it every day
Even though we moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking moments

The day they found me asleep on the floor
Engine running, closed garage door
Was the day the 'For Sale' sign arrived on the lawn
2 weeks later and we were gone

Everyone falls through time and the funnel it makes
But I'm staying here inside my biggest mistake

I live with it every day
Even though we moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking moments

I live with it every day
For every step I have to pay
The only thing that they can't take
The guild that spirals in my wake

The love I put away
Like games that children play
The hearts you choose to break
Like cars dumped in the lake

The laugh lines on your face
The life, I won't embrace
The cold house, I won't leave
The guests, I won't receive

I live with it every day
Even though we moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking moments

I live with it every day
For every step I have to pay
The only thing that they can't take
The guild that spirals in my wake