I Hate You

I hate you

I know

I love you

I know

Don't go

Liz

I know

I won't be anywhere near the action
I'll be at some air conditioned tent miles from everything

I hate you. I hate you.
I love you. I hate you.
Don't do it. I need you.
Forget it. I know you.
My God. How I hate you.

Don't leave me. I love you.
Don't say that you love me.
Cause what does it matter
You're going to leave me.
So, leave me. Whatever.
It's not like I need you.
I need you; don't leave me.

You know I'm not selfish
But me, me, me I, I
I need you to stay.
Okay?

In my life, I haven't made that many promises.
Just one to them and one to you.
And you know me like no one has known me before
And so you'll know what I have to do.
And no matter what you say, you want me too.

Let's look at this calmly,
discuss how I hate you
the ways that you've hurt me.
though really you haven't
You're clearly about to.
Don't touch me. I hate you.

Just leave us, whatever.
We'll get on without you
I'm tough and resourceful.
I'm steady and sturdy.
And freaking the fuck out.

I love you, I hate you.
So screw you; you're making me crazy.
So go.
Wait, no.

In my life, I always said I don't need anyone.
I like our life and I love you.
And, I swore that I'd love, without wanting or needing you.
But, it's too late; I need you too.

You're the reason I think this life might not be meaningless
You're my North Star, my path to grace
You're my single best decision
In a life of many awful ones.
My one big yes, my one embrace
With you I never feel I'm out of place.

(We believe the insurgents intended the RPG attack to inflict the maximum casualties in the medical facility. Your husband was working his second shift that day. The CO wanted you to know that the number of lives they saved on this...)

God damn it, you did it;
I knew you would do it.
You asshole, I hate you.
I totally blame you.
And, really, how could you
I hate you, I hate you.
I hate that I hate you.
I hate that I love you.
I love you
I . . . loved you.
I loved you.
I lost you; I hate you.
God damn it you asshole, you motherfucker.

In my life, I haven't made that many promises
Just one to him, now to you two
That I will never let this world take me away from you
I brought you both here
I'll see you through
Whatever comes
Whatever I must do
It's me and you
It's me and you
It's me and you