i hate hartley

Seems like forever, like forever
Since I tore myself apart
And left my friends in the wake
Of countless tears
And fading life
When I couldn't seem to grasp the life I lead
And the lives I touch
It's one year on now,
One year on, one year on
Still I struggle with the same demons
I she'd as I lay there
Lost in my head, lost in my head
Lost in this goddamn hospital bed...
I'm not the same man and I don't dare try,
Try to uncover all the darkness I hide
It's like my demons are my lovers...
But I've got friends (friends)
By my side, I've got hope (hope) in my eyes
And dreams to aspire to
And the world to watch below
(Chorus)
And death won't be my lover I've got so
Much left to give and take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left...
Instead of trying to take my own life
It's one year on
And I'm stronger-
I want to live much longer
Not grow old and bitter
And jaded and not hate what life gave me
And let the fear wash away
And let the demons blunt their claws
On a life that's full of mistakes
But always searching for much more.
I won't die defeated.
(I won't die defeated)
'Cause I've got friends
(Friends) by my side
I've got hope in my eyes
And dreams to aspire to
And the whole wide world to watch below...
(Chorus)
And death won't be my lover I've got so
Much left to give and take my life with subtle steps instead of not wanting
All that is left...