Hurt

I hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain.
The only thing that's real.

The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything.

What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end.

You could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.

I wear this crown of shit,
Upon my liar's chair,
Full of broken thoughts.
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time.
The feelings disappear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here.

What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end.

You could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.

If I could start again,
A million miles away,
I would keep myself,
I would find a way.