Gotta Know

You just gotta know
You ever feel like life just coming at ya a million miles an hour?
You just gotta know, you just gotta know
Somebody's holding it all together

Life is like an elevator, a lot of ups and downs
People pushing your buttons and getting jerked around
I used to lurk around town trying to work around
Working so that I could hit the ground with the perfect sound

Even perfect sound sounds like work
When you spend your time flirting with the crown in the perp
I was bound for berzerk with a layover in crazy
A lazy Jay-Z hoping rock-a-fellas paid me

Or rocking ladies were caught me a Mercedes
But that whole dream was in '80's, baby
Missed that shot like the cop that's crooked
TV goes off, third eye still looking

Mom's still cooking, I can always go home
Even though I'm five years past grown
Here I go again, I'm still chasing the wind, I can't win
When it gets hot, it boils down to sin
If heaven ain't a gift, then I ain't getting in, man

I can't even find the words for the way I feel
So I paint a picture, I paint a picture
I've been going down this road, seen some crazy things
So I paint a picture, you gots to see it

You just gotta know, you just gotta know
You just gotta know, you just gotta know

Yeah, I sit and hear the guitars play
Wonder if they could, what would stars say?
Or Venus and Mars say, or say that we want it our way
Stars so desperate to shine that they go on living the hard way

The intellect to travel to Mars but so blind
We worship Venus but she don't even know who we are
And she never cared why? 'Cause she wasn't there
When I was trying to drown my sorrows in a pool of despair

I ain't perfect, sometimes I feel worthless
Worthless than that is the image that I'da purchased
Man, from the shades to the shirt, to the shoes
Just another fool trying to cover he's confused, that ain't cool

Sometimes I hate the man in the mirror
'Cause I know he's a liar and a cheater and a killer
People say they love him but they love what he can give 'em
But deep inside he knows that there's a reason for him living

I can't even find the words for the way I feel
So I paint a picture, I paint a picture
I've been going down this road, seen some crazy things
So I paint a picture, you gots to see it

You just gotta know, you just gotta know
You just gotta know, you just gotta know

Uh, you know I need you like Aqua
Day without ya got me so nauseous
If I ain't cautious, I'm gonna self-inflict my sickness
You know it's true, you as my witness

At how you witness, my inconsistent
Yes, the ovation when I need your assistance
And I just gotta know that even though I'm a misfit
I'm still worth more than calamity's French kiss

Yes, I'm loved and I'm pursued
And though I can't feel it, still I know that it's true
Somebody woke me up and yeah, I know it was you
And yet I keep trying to steer clear of your view

'Cause if you get me, I know that you got me
But I'm so insecure I can't believe that you want me
But then I heard you went on your way to adopt me
Well, you can have my all if you swear you won't drop me
'Cause I gotta know, yeah

You just gotta know, gotta know, gotta know
You just gotta know, gotta know, gotta know that it's real
You just gotta know, gotta know, gotta know that it's real
You just gotta know, gotta know that it's real

You just gotta know, gotta know, gotta know
You just gotta know, gotta know, gotta know that it's real
You just gotta know, gotta know, gotta know that it's real
You just gotta know, gotta know that it's real