Fear Of Flying

My every dream hangs in the air like black balloon
And I just leave them hanging here to fill the room
I move carefully, don't want to break them
But it's hard

I wish to tell you how I slept through all my life
Waiting for letters that will make me pack and leave
I couldn't do this anyway but I'm too proud to admit it

Though it drives me insane now
I'll be okay now
I'll be okay 'cause it's nobody's fault
It's just that I'm scared
I'm still not quite there
I'm still not quite there

I eat my every day without a pinch of spice
I keep my head down so I don't look at balloons
I got nothing to lose but what about my heart?
What about my heart?
Heart x5

Though it drives me insane now
I'll be okay now
I'll be okay 'cause it's nobody's fault
It's just that I'm scared
I'm still not quite there

And it all falls on my head again
All falls on my head again
All falls on my
And it all falls on my head again
All falls on my head again
Isn't that the best excuse?

I'm mad at myself 'cause it's how I choose to live
I'm mad but I just have no guts to choose again
It could all change in a blink of an eye
But that's the reason why it will never change

Though it drives me insane
I'll be okay now
I'll be okay 'cause it's nobody's fault
It's just that I'm scared
I'm always so scared of flying