Famke

I picked it up, I held it, I threw it away, I strayed
By far, one of the dumbest things I've done to myself
No embracement of the truth, it's gone
Progress unwound, ideals shut down

Pin it on me, take me away
I'm guilty as charged, you can call out
This is my forceful vice struggling to gain some life
Sometimes when you live with something for so long
You can't break it, can't put it down, can't walk away

Beauty in my mind
Defined by images shot into my mind
Brain scan, observe the man I am
Look at my hands, I'm trembling at the mistakes I live

One day I'm awake, the next day I'm dead
This is not real, this I know
But it calls on me, how does this work?
It's so fucking twisted, it takes me away

It sweeps me off my feet, I know how this goes
I've dealt with this before, day one, liquefy my life
Take my insides out, hang them on a wall
The beauty, self-security works itself into a hole

But I can feel the cold from here and I know it's cold
Blisters ravaged my life, the life that I claimed back
Turned it around