Eyes as Candles

My world astir and sickly
Spits out our voices, singing
Tra la la la, oh, no no
To kingdom come so slightly

Here in the void in your place
I twitch and tweak in illusion
To sit and stare so blankly
Until all hope is used up

Why do I always need to need you when you're fleeting?
Where do you go when I'm around?
What have I done, what have I lost that's so defeating?
And have the nerve to wear the crown?

Oh, na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey

Some guarded room, smoky figure fills me full
Makes my head swell in ruin
My family kneels at the pew
They nod, "We believe in what you're doing"

I feel it rise above me
The western landscapes, towering
And from my shell of a body
The flowers blossom for picking

Why do I always need to need you when you're fleeting?
Where do you go when I'm around?
What have I done, what have I lost that's so defeating?
And have the nerve to wear the crown?

Oh, na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey

Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey
Na, na, na, na, na, na, hey, hey, hey

I've waited and waited for someone to take it
Don't fight it, don't bother, an inch for another
Don't listen, don't hear them, they're in this together
I've learned well, now hear me, there's much to be fearing
I'm used to your absence, your faceless distraction

I've painted your patterns but found them attractive
Now I've been leaning towards a life far more candid
Thrown up through the darkness, your eyes as my candles
And your life, and my life, directions can render

And all of a sudden you left me to handle
The reasons that never forbid me to step out
And somehow or somewhere I found out the secret
To say it aloud without actually breathing